Half Empty (COMPLETE)

8.Mislead

(A/N: So I'm finally updating. Once again life got in the way of me writing. But I noticed that a lot of you guys were reading and it inspired me to hurry up and post a new chapter! So thank you guys for commenting and reading! You're the best! And with that said here is Chapter 8! Enjoy! :)

Rayne's POV

I can't believe this. I'm sitting in a car in my driveway, the world is spinning, and all I'm aware of is the fact that Caleb Worthington is kissing me. His lips are soft and his body against mine feels amazing. His warm hands are still on my face, one pressed softly against my cheek the other under my chin tilting my mouth up to his. It almost feels to good to be true.

And then my world comes crashing down as reality hits me. This is to good to be true. He has a girlfriend, he's straight, he's the most popular guy in the school. There is no way he likes me in that way. There has to be some kind of other explanation for this and I don't want to wait around to get hurt when he realizes the mistake he's making. I immediately pull away from Caleb. 

He stares at me still dazed but suddenly alert. "Are you okay?"

As usual I don't respond. And then I see the look that I've been dreading as the weight of what just happened crashes down between us. He looks freaked out and confused. I watch as he turns away from me and stares out the front window of the car.

"Rayne, I'm sorry-" He begins. But I don't wait around to hear the rest. I open the car door and hurriedly get out practically running up the driveway to the house.

I hear him calling my name from the driveway. But I don't turn around, afraid to face the rejection that I know is waiting behind me. I throw open the front door and step into the house running up to my room and slamming the door. I lean against it struggling to catch my breath and then I sink to the floor sobbing as I realize that I've lost the first person that ever showed me any kindness.

I feel stupid for thinking for even a second that Caleb could actually like me. I've barely even known the guy for a week and I let my stupid crush get carried away. I brought this upon myself. I let my guard down. How could I be so stupid?

I get up from the floor wiping the tears from my face. I make my way over to the bed and try to sleep. But as soon as I lay down my phone rings. I look at the caller ID and see that it's Caleb. I press ignore and turn my phone off. Then I lay back down and drift off into a dreamless sleep.

Caleb's POV

I'm at home sitting in my own driveway now with my head leaning against the steering wheel in complete disbelief. I kissed Rayne. I can't believe it. I kissed Rayne Clearwater and he ran away from me. I don't know why I did that. I'm so confused. I've never felt this way about a guy before. He just looked so perfect in that moment that I couldn't resist it was like a magnetic pull between us drawing us together. There's a blur of emotions running through me. Apart of me feels happy because as much as I don't want to admit it, I actually enjoyed the kiss. The other part of me feels confused and freaked out. Confused because now the sexuality I've always been so sure of has been called into question and freaked out because Rayne clearly didn't like the kiss and I think I've lost the only true friend I've ever had. 

The last thing I wanted to do was hurt him. I just wanted to get close to him and learn the mystery that constantly surrounded him. What caused him to stop speaking? What thoughts go on beyond those exceptionally bright blue eyes that remind me of the bluest sapphires and the gentle blue waves of the ocean? But I guess there was always something more, a deeper reason why I wanted to get close to Rayne. I wanted to know what it was like to run my hands through his to long messy brown hair. I wanted him to trust me with his secrets. I wanted to protect him. To kiss away the fears that haunt him and to hold his hand and be there for him whenever he needs me.

I guess I'm finally admitting to myself that I have feelings for the kid. But it doesn't matter. I just want to be his friend again. I immediately pull out my cell phone and try to call him. But he doesn't pick up. I call again and then it goes straight to voicemail. I feel like such a prick.

I sigh and walk into the house comforted by the thought that I'll see him tomorrow at school.

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The next day I walk straight towards his locker determined to solve this situation. I can see him from across the hallway shoving books into his bag his long hair hanging in his eyes. I'm almost close to him when Lindsay pops up out of nowhere.

"Caley-poo!" She shouts throwing her arms around my neck. I try to break away from her. "Not right now Lindsay." But she's not listening and she leans up and kisses me smack on the lips.

I wipe my lips with the back of my hand on reflex. I look up to see Rayne talking to Amber and Garrett. Amber turns around and gives me the finger and an extremely dirty look to go with it. Rayne refuses to look my way. I watch as he darts down the hallway into the direction of his first class.

Damn. I missed my chance. "Caleb walk me to class." Lindsay says as she grabs my hand. Her touch is like acid burning my skin. I pull my hand out of her grasp. I wish she would stop touching me.

"No. I can't."

"What? Why not?" She whines. I can feel myself getting irritated.

"Because maybe I want to be on time for my own class for once. Stop being so selfish." I say and I walk away leaving her standing there alone.

I know I'm taking my frustration out on her but she's seriously starting to annoy me now. The only person I want to talk to is Rayne.

I hurriedly head to my first class still thinking of Rayne and trying to devise a method to get him to communicate with me again. 

By the end of fourth period I practically sprint down to the lunchroom determined to get Rayne to speak, well write to me again. I walk into the lunchroom and spot a dark brown haired boy sitting alone at a table by himself. It's Rayne. Amber and Garrett are nowhere to be found, I'm assuming they must be in the lunch line getting food. I decide to take my chance. 

I walk over and Rayne spots me and immediately puts his head down on the table obviously trying to avoid eye contact. But I don't care. I'm determined to solve this situation.

"Hello, Rayne." I say casually.

He looks up at me slowly and nods. I sigh, at least the kid isn't completely ignoring me.

"Look, I just want to apologize for what happened the other day. It was a mistake. I got caught up in the moment and I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable. Can you please stop avoiding me so we can go back to being friends?"

Rayne begins writing in his notepad. "Yes, let's pretend like yesterday never happened."

A twinge of disappointment hits me. He wants to pretend like yesterday never happened? Did he hate the kiss that much? But I decide not to dwell on it. As least we're friends again.

Just then Lindsay comes up behind me and practically jumps on my back. "Caleb!!! Why are you over here at this table? She annunciates the last words as if she had a foul taste in her mouth and looks at Rayne with disgust. Lindsay's behavior has seriously been pissing me off lately. It takes every ounce of self control I have to not say something I'll regret.

Just then Amber cuts in. "Lindsay why are you over here at our lunch table being such a bitch?"Amber and Garrett sit down and look over at Rayne who now that I actually get a good look at him looks noticeably paler than usual and his long bangs are plastered against his forehead. Amber looks kind of worried. "Rayne are you okay?" I ask. He looks really sick.

"Why do you care?" Amber shoots at me angrily. "I care because I'm his friend." I snap back defensively. "His friend!? Is that what you call-"

Just then a tray falls and clatters loudly as it hits the ground. Everyone looks up at Rayne who has fallen on the floor and is laying on the cold ground of the cafeteria completely unconscious.