It's not my fault - A Charlynch book

Chapter 15

* This chapter might be triggering to some people *

Becky's POV

I decided to not go on my walk and went back upstairs. I took the stairs to be faster. I opened the door to my room and I closed the door and fell to my knees and cried. I started to breakdown and throw things but I didn't care. I just lost the best thing that has ever happened to me because of Finn. I decided to take a shower to try to clear my mind. But my emotions got the best of me. I got my razor and I haven't done this in a long time.

One cut turned to two. Two turned into five. Five turned into ten. I saw my blood mix with the water and went down the drain. I sat down with my arm still bleeding and put my head into my knees.

I soon heard the bathroom door open and I heard Charlotte's voice. "Bex, you left the door to your room unlocked," she said. I peeked my head from behind the shower curtain and said," I forgot to lock it but when I'm done, can we just cuddle. Just me and you." She nodded her head yes and I gave her a quick peck and continued showering.

Charlotte's POV

I went to Becky's room and noticed that things were not in their original spots. She must've thrown them because she will never leave her room this messy. "Charlotte, can you bring me a sweatshirt and some shorts?" I hear Becky yell from the bathroom. I went to her suit case and grabbed the things she asked for. "Here babe," I kissed her cheek and went back to her room. She took a while to get dressed but I didn't mind.

She soon stepped out of the bathroom and went to her room where she just laid in bed with my arms around her. We kissed every once in a while but we just talked about our friends and our job. It's moments like these that I love. Just me and the love of my life in my arms, laying together and talking.

I heard her phone buzz and she went to check it but I saw that it was from Finn. "I uh.. need to go I'm sorry," she kissed my cheek and started to put her shoes on. "Bex, wait a second ," I grab her arm and she yanks it back quickly biting her lip. "Becky, I saw that you had a message from Finn so why are you leaving," she looked scared to tell me something.

"I'm sorry. I really am but I hope you forgive me later," she then left in a hurry leaving me confused.

Becky's POV

I didn't want to go but I had to. I can't believe I have to do this now but if I tell Charlotte what's happening, she's not gonna forgive me.

I make my way to his door and knock. A few seconds later he opens the door with a smile on his face. "Becky, how are you now since Charlotte isn't here? Let's have some fun," he put his arm around my shoulders and guided me in.

He then sat me down and was about to kiss me but I interrupted him. "Finn, can you please just not do this? I only want Charlotte. Why can't you just accept that and move on,"I say while looking down trying to avoid eye contact with him but he just grabbed my face and made me look at him. "Actually you know what, how about we don't hang out. How about you tell Charlotte right now that you're breaking up with her," I looked at him and he just smiled at my reaction. "No, I can't do that. She'll be heartbroken and there's no way I can do that to her," I said.

"Not my problem. You have 20 minutes and once you're done come back here, I want to do a couple of things. So you either do it or I will," he then left to go to his bedroom. I can't believe I'm being forced to break up with the person I'm truly in love with. I take out my phone and text her to see where she is.

Lasskicker 🧡: Charlotte, where are you right now

Queen 👑: I went to my room since you left me

Lasskicker 🧡: I'll be there soon

I make my way out of his room and make my way to her room. She opened the door and I was getting nervous than ever. I made my way to the couch with her hand in mind. We sat down and I took a deep breath and started talking.

"Um, before I start I want to let you know that you're the best thing that ever happened to me. You always believed in me when I don't even believe in myself. You always care about me and you always know how to cheer me up when I'm in a bad mood. So I'm sorry for this but I-I'm breaking up with y-you,"I look down to avoid her eyes because I know if I look at them, I would break down.

"What? Why, I don't understand," she said her voice cracking in the middle of her sentence. "I can't tell you but I'm so sor-,"I try to say before being cut off. "Bullshit. Why can't you tell me. Am I just not worth having an explanation," she said angrily. "No, you do it's just I can't-," I said with tears in my eyes.

"No, you know what fuck you. Go back to Finn. He might have made you happier than I ever could," she said. "You think I wanted this to happen. I never did. I never wanted to be with Finn. I never wanted to live my life in fear. It's not my fault what he did to me. I never wanted this to happen. I wanted to be with you. I always wanted to have a future with you but because of him, I can't. If you want to blame me for his actions go ahead," I say. She looks at me with an unreadable expression. She just stands there looking at me with tears in her eyes. I walk up to her and kiss her on the lips for maybe the last time ever. "Goodbye Charlotte. I will always love you, just remember that for me please," I say. I turned away from her and made my way out of her room.

I can't believe I just did that. That was the most hardest thing I ever had to do. Charlotte didn't deserve that. I hope she's not that heartbroken. I wished I never talked to Finn.

I made my way to his room and knocked on his door. A few seconds later he opened it and asked,"Did you do it," I sadly nodded and I felt him pull me inside. I felt him push me into a corner of the room and it was soon me and him alone again. "Poor Charlotte is probably heartbroken but I could care less about her. She's just as dumb and ugly as you are. I told you I was gonna have you and I may have broken some hearts along the way but it's fun," he said with a smirk on his face. I soon punched him because of him talking about Charlotte like that. He soon got up and just slaps the taste out of my mouth. "You never listen do you Rebecca. I might as well need to show you," he grabs me by my hair and drags me to his room.