Charlotte's POV
"So, let's start from the very beginning. How did you first know that you liked Becky?," Sasha said and I blush at the thought. "Well I remember us being at Dallas for a show and me and Becky were in my locker room just talking and at that moment I felt like different. Like I was getting butterflies every time she hugged me. I would blush every time she kissed my cheek and she was always there for me when I needed her," I say feeling my eyes water.
"When Reid passed away, she was always there for me. There was many days where I felt lonely and miserable like I had no reason to live but she changed that for me. Every day I woke up and checked my phone she would always be the first person I talk to and it was the same thing when I was going through my second divorce. We were all on the main roster and Paige was also there to check up on me but it didn't feel the same as Becky. So that's when I realized that Becky was different. That she was the person I fell in love with," I said wiping tears from my eyes. I felt Sasha rub my back. "If you want to stop we can," Sasha said and I shake my head. "No I want to do this," I said and she smiles at me.
"So how did you two get together," Sasha said and I blush again at the thought of us being together again. "Well, I started to avoid Becky for a while since I thought there was no way she liked me and I needed to get over her but she started to act suspicious," I say causing Sasha to look confused.
"Like every time Finn was around she was scared and she sometimes had to leave quickly for no reason. But I know it was the day after Olive Garden where I think we were driving to the airport for our flight and I asked her to be my girlfriend and then we were together but she was still with Finn but then she broke up with him," I said leaving out the parts of Finn being abusive. Sasha looked confused but she will know sooner or later.
"Ok, so tell me how it was being in a relationship with Becky?,"she said and I smiled. "Well during our relationship not many people knew it was just you, Bayley, Paige and that's it. Being with Becky was amazing but there was times where there was a lot going on. Finn had this type of control over her that pressured her into doing certain things. It's hard to explain," I say and she looks at me confused. "What do you mean he had this control over her?," she said and I sigh. "We started dating while she was still dating him. So when he was around, Becky just like shut down. She was quieter than normal and she looked at him with fear. She was much more aware of things. She wasn't the same when he was around," I said almost crying remembering the memories of what he did to her. "Do you know why Becky acted like that? It could've been something else," Sasha said. "I don't know but Finn just did things to her that were out of my control," I said while trying to hold the tears back.
"Just remember anytime you wanna stop we can," Sasha reminded me but I need someone to talk to about it. "I know but after me and her broke up, I was a mess. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep properly and I would just miss waking up in her arms. She then got back together with Finn and when I heard about it, I was just shocked because she moved on so quickly like I didn't mean anything to her. But one day, we were at the arena for a show and I was walking and I saw that Finn had Becky in a position where he was pulling her hair and took her somewhere and.." I said before I started to cry. I put my head in my hands and cried while Sasha rubbed circles on my back.
"I could've stopped him but I let my anger get the best of me. It's my fault what happened to her," I said while still crying. It was my fault what happened to her. I let out a shaky breath before I continue. "And I just continued walking like I didn't see anything but I knew I should have done something. So then I didn't see them after the show so they must've been at the hotel so when I went to the hotel I went to my room and I opened it and saw Becky sitting down on the floor while Paige had a towel and was dabbing it on her back. I was confused so I walked up to them and saw that Becky's entire back was bruised. It was all red with some cuts and then I tried to help but Becky won't let me. She said I could've stopped what happened and she's right. All of that was my fault," I said while crying.
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It's not my fault - A Charlynch book
FanfictionThis is my first book and it isn't finished yet but it's going under some editing and will be completed soon to the people that have been waiting.