The wolf pack BTS FF (book 1) (COMPLETED)

22: i need space

A couple of hours later my parents released me from the hospital but they told me if I cut again I'm going to a mental hospital. I remember when I was 12 I was sent to a mental hospital for my "twitches".  My old mother thought something was wrong with me, and I had to stay there for 2 days. Yet the doctors knew nothing was wrong with me. They did a whole bunch of tests like blood tests, social activity, and social interaction. I was diagnosed with anxiety at a young age and also with depression. But it hasn't effected me in a long time.

We got in the car and we drove home. Jimin was holding my arm for the whole ride home, like he was trying to stop me from scratching the scars. I had old ones and new ones and jimin got mad at me for cutting myself.

"I can stop whenever I want to!"
"Sure, but I don't trust you. When we get to your house you're giving me all your razors and I'm telling your parents to take away your scissors"
"I'm not a freaking toddler, Jimin"
"You sure act like one"
"I'm stupid I know! You don't have to remind me"
"Ok"

We got back home and I went to my room and texted jhope after jimin went home.

💑💜Hobi💜💑

Hey jhope

Hey y/n, look I'm really really sorry about everything I said

It's fine, but I think I have something to say to you

What's that?

I think I need space

How's this?

No, I'm being serious. I think we need to break up....

Y/n, you can't mean that..

I do, I, so sorry babe
We can still be friends

No. I'll just date IU

Oh ok

Don't talk to me

Jhope, it's just a break up. It's not the end of the world!

Well to me it is!

MY FUCKING GOD! GROW THE FUCK UP!🤬

*blocked*

😭🤬🤮Stupid ex🤮🤬😭

I threw my phone across my bed at cried. I knew it would be bad but I never expected him to be like a child. Especially for him to act like this after I almost died!
I fucking hate him!
I didn't go down for dinner, I just stayed in my room while I was watching tv, listening to music, and crying.

'He's so fucking stupid! I should've waited for him!'

Then I heard a knock at my window, I have a balcony outside of my window so I could chill out there. I opened my window and saw V.

"Hey Y/n/n"
"H-hey v"
"What's wrong?"
"*breaks* ME AND JHOPE BROKE UP!"

I ran to hug him and I squeezed him.

"Was it jhope or you?"
"M-me, but he was being ch-childish about it"
"It's gonna be ok"
"NO ITS NOT!"
"how about we go for a walk?"
"V it's 9:30, we have school tomorrow"
"So?"
"Alright, I'll be down in a while. Meet me in the back"
"Ok"

I closed my window, grabbed my hoodie, and ran downstairs.

"Hey guys, I'm going to take a walk to clear mind from the break up"
"You and hobi broke up?"
"Yeah, it's about what happened today. I'll be back probably at 10 or 11, deepens on how far I go"
"12 is the latest, turn your phone on too"
"I'm keeping it in my room because I don't want jhope to text or call me. I don't want to cry anymore"
"Alright, be safe"
"Ok I will"

I walked outside and I saw V with a flashlight because it was dark.

"Let's go"
"Alright"

He held out his arm and I interlocked my arm with his.
About 30 minutes of walking we stopped at a bench my parents put, he also brought some food with him because he knew I didn't eat.

"C'mon, eat"
"I'm good"
"No, you're eating"
"V, I'm fine"
"No, I'll feed you if I have to"
"Don't you dare"
"I will"

He grabbed a sandwich and force fed me.
He was touching my cheeks while he was feeding me, I instantly felt my face turn red so I turned away.

"Aww. Are you turning into a tomato?"
"Shut up!"

I pushed him and he grabbed my arm and pulled me closer to him. Then he hugged me.

"I know everything, about what happened.."
"You do?"
"Yeah, why would you do that?"
"Because-"

I looked at his eyes and I noticed he was crying.

"V don't cry!"
"You're more important to me than anything in the world! I just-!"

I hugged him and told him

"I don't want to hurt you..."