2015/03/13 – Friday (Lisbon, Portugal)
...stability...woke up this morning...grateful for what works in my life and optimistic with what needs to be improved will one day come to fruition... came into Lisbon this morning, feeling confident with my public transit traveling in this foreign city...I feel like one of them...a lisboeta...being Friday the 13th, has absolutely no superstitious meaning like back home in North America... good or bad luck, my life goes on...
... how true... I do deserve good things... but the problem seems to be when to recognize the good things...is there a wonderful life ahead of me... considering I am 55 and looking back at my genetic lineage... if I can milk another 20 or so years I'll be lucky... when I read self-help slogans like... something you've worked hard for... considering I'm lazy by design... can I really expect something?...I always dreamt not to be a pain in the ass...but considering I am now writing this...is it a given my dream will not materialize... so, will I... really get what I wanted... when I have yet to define what I want...
...my god this is so true... and it happened again this morning...when I got up and went to the bathroom and looked into the mirror...even though my eyes were still covered with that yellow stuff (rheum)... even through this blurry eyelash filter... I saw myself and thought modestly... Mcfern, you are adorable... I know, hard to believe huh?... not that I care what you think of me... what counts is what I think of myself... so... how would an adorable man like myself look for an unfound soul mate... of course... why not?... use these pages shamelessly to find... the one... so here goes... at least it is cheaper than using the UN-Matched dating site...cause once they got a hold of my credit card, they would not let go and charged me despite my cancellation requests... for a company that sells human interaction... no human answers their phone lines...
...I'm a 55-year-old moderately romantic chap and a Pisces too...very creative and extremely unpredictable... I like long walks on the beach, but since it (beach) is far... I go to Home Depot and walk on sand bags to get that sandy beach feeling on my soles... I love cuddly romantic evenings by an electric or gas fireplace, as long as I get to hold the fireplace's remote control... ...my speciality is romantic candlelight suppers...carefully selecting (on sale that week) the right flavour of low sodium Campbell's soup served exquisitely from the can... but I do wrap a decorative ribbon around the can to embellish the mood as we dip our previously used plastic spoons into the lukewarm soup...please note, one of the spoons is cracked, I will use it this time, then you (gallantry)... and Airwick has the most enchanting scented candles which are not just for the bathroom...in cold winter days, I open the car door for you...so that you may get out to push the car... the door latch is broken from the inside...
...seriously, I am a gentleman who still believes in chivalry when convenient... that is why at the movies we can share the popcorn I sneaked in from Dollarama... which was placed/hidden in your purse without your knowledge... yep!... if anyone out there has a free heart... you know I'm an adorable catch...
...alas!...sorry to say, but you are too late, for on this delusory Friday the 13th...it is not the lack of women who have come into my life and loved me, as I loved them... no, the dilemma is me loving myself that is always short lived and I drag the ones I love down into my conundrum...
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Paper Cigarette
Random...... ...Paper Cigarette (slices of life)... ...for better or for worse, what happens on the Camino does not always stay on the Camino.... .. it's a journal style novel (fiction)....... it's about a man who inadvertently finds himself on the Santia...
