The Diary of Mia

May

May 10, 2018

Dear Diary, 

        I have been getting help, I'm staying at a rehabilitation center where I have been going to therapy for the last two months and it seems I'm improving. I don't have dark thoughts as much as before and I'm starting to learn how to live with myself and love myself one day at a time. I have my off days of course where I'm sad and I hate myself but now its rarely. 

       Today I'm going back to my new home. My parents decided it was best to sell our old house because it holds too many painful memories for me and now them. We going to have a new beginning, they want to spend time with me to make me feel loved, to make sure no one ever makes me feel like no one loves me, they going to make sure of it. My brother is graduating college this year and he wants to move closer to us because he wants to be part of my life and be there for me when I need him. He was heartbroken after everything he found out, he went crazy, he went to Anthony house and dragged him outside and beat him up in front of his family. 

    Anthony the monster that abused me and raped me for years. He is the man that destroyed me. I couldn't say his name for so long because doing so made everything more real. He was my brother best friend since they were born, and when they were 5, I was born and became part of their friendship. We were inseparable but as the years passed he changed with me, he started to see me with the eyes of a hunter looking at his prey. Now I know that what he did didn't just destroyed me, he destroyed all of us.

    My parents put charges against him and his family was crying the whole time, his mom looked destroy when the judge read his sentence. It made me break inside, I didn't want to see them that broken, I didn't want to break a family that I loved so much.

  They didn't believe me at first, they were angry and wondering why I would something like that to their son but at one of their visits to Anthony, he confessed the truth to them. Elena who was Anthony older sister by 5 years, was the first one that broke. She saw me after they talked to Anthony, she and her mom went on their knees and begged for forgiveness. I didn't have anything to forgive them for, they were always kind and sweet to me. Anthony at his short life of 25 was sentenced to 20 years in jail.

I going to have 20 years to erase my fear of seeing him on the streets or finding him in the middle of the supermarket. 

He is losing 20 years of his life but I'm going to try to survive my whole life.

Sincerely,

 Mia