UnPretty Thoughts: The Leader [ Namjoon x Reader ]

Releasing Shock

Sitting in her room, she just sort of stared at the boxes and bags of her things. She was really here. She was really doing this. And she had really kissed Namjoon. Well. He had kissed her. Ohmigod, he had kissed her!

Why had he done that? He had meant to do that, right? It felt like a dream... Wait. Had she dreamed it? There was no possible way she had daydreamed so hard she thought she was experiencing it in real life, right? Because she still couldn't believe that it had happened. How was she suppose to process what she had previously deemed as impossible?

Squeezing her eyes shut, she pressed the heels of her palms to her brow and slightly curled in on herself. It had really happened. Now she'd need to have a super uncomfortable conversation with him! She'd have to tell him that she wouldn't allow him to take out his pent up frustration on her. They were friends! She most certainly didn't want to lose that, not when she was working for him and not when she felt like any day now he'd say goodbye and never look back!

Falling on her side, the bed didn't so much as groan with the sudden impact. It was a really high-quality bed... The bedroom also looked super upper-class. Her stuff would hopefully make it look a little more comfortable in here...

Lost in thought, Y/N laid there for a moment before pulling herself upright and smacking both hands on her cheeks. Right! She had to pull herself together! This was no time to act all dazed and discombobulated! Best to get the worst of it all out of the way now!

Jumping to her feet, she almost took a step towards the door. Almost. ARGH! Seriously! With a frustrated stamp of her foot, she paced a bit. How was she going to draw the line in the sand when she wasn't even so sure she wanted it?! Of course, she wanted him to kiss her! Of course, she wanted to be more than just friends! But not at the risk of him being caught in a scandal and the group being slandered and them having to go separate ways so badly!

Yes, it was selfish to want more! And of course, she was worried he might just want a casual fling... But wouldn't he have chosen a stranger instead of her if he wanted that? Was it really okay to believe, just a little, that he felt all the strong magnetism she had been feeling lately?

Ah, this was giving her a headache. And a heartache. Rubbing her chest with her hand, she sighed and stopped pacing. Y/N looked around without seeing much of anything, before shaking her head a bit.

A bath. A bath would calm her down. Usually, she stuck with showers, since they were quick and easy. But she wanted to relax. Desperate times called for desperate measures. Plus the warm water would be nice to soak in for a while.

Wearily she gathered everything she needed out of various bags and boxes. Rubbing her eyes tiredly, Y/N walked as quietly through the hallway as possible. She didn't want to disturb anyone. She still felt rather uncomfortable living with several new people.

Was the bathing room this way? Closed doors could all look the same...

"Ah, Sunshine-sshi," a soft voice called her new nickname and she turned her head to see Park Jimin standing in a doorway. He was actually closing the door behind him. Funny, but he seemed so much more relaxed in sweats and a loose t-shirt. On stage, he was always pristine and shining, which she had always imagined would make him intimidating. He just tilted his head a bit and gave her a shy smile.

"Hello, Jimin-sshi," she returned the formality, feeling just as shy all of a sudden, "Sorry if I disturbed you. I was just looking for the bathing room..." The rather graceful guy nodded a bit and joined her in the hall.

"I can show you if you like," he smiled delicately and gestured for her to follow him, "I guess we never really went over where everything was located... Sorry." His apology was sent with a small glance. All in all the air around them both was rather delicate and shy. He had been very soft-spoken since she arrived, almost fading into the background. But he was very polite and kind to help her.

"No, no, it's fine," Y/N waved one hand a bit, feeling a bit awkward and nervous with such a delicate atmosphere. It made her feel clumsy and very unfeminine as if she were walking alongside a model or ballerina or something. "I should have asked before we all parted ways. My mind was just a bit...preoccupied."

"Preoccupied?" Jimin gave her a small curious glance, "Hm... I do suppose it has been a very busy day for you..." He didn't realize the understatement that was lying in those words. She felt her face flush a bit, remembering the feeling of being almost entirely pressed against Namjoon.

"U-Uh, yes, it has," Y/N gave a wavering smile and looked away from the graceful boy, "Thank you for the concern..." Jimin took a moment to look at her a bit longer. This girl would be living with them. If she showed that expression too often it might cause issues... A far brighter smile crossed his face.

"Sunshine," he said with a sweet grin, "If you have any trouble, please feel free to talk to me, okay?" His sudden offer and blindingly angelic smile made Y/N feel like she might need sunglasses if he so confidently grinned like.

"Thank you for your help, Jimin-sshi," she said as politely as possible, even though her voice wavered a bit, "A-And I shall certainly take you generous words to heart." Y/N almost winced at her own robotic way of answering him. Since when did she get to stiff? He just chuckled and she could almost swear she saw little white feathers flowing around him. The boy was just too pure.

"Night, Sunshine," he gave her a little wave. She bowed quickly and waved back. Whew. Each of these guys seemed to have their own superpower on women, didn't they? How dangerous...

Entering the bathing room while thinking on how she could protect her very un-ready heart, she completely missed that there were already clothes on the counter.