The boy next door || a.i.

1.6

I really missed Ashton, well, all of the boys really. It was hard to go back to dealing with my life without them. I don't even know what to do with myself any more.

I miss all of the noise

The random hugs.

Michael and Calum fighting about some stupid game.

Luke singing on skype

I really miss all of the times where ash would hear the fighting, so he would knock at my window and sneak me over to his house for the night.

Even popcorn wars

I missed all of it

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I lay on my back in the long grass, staring at the stars. It was almost 5:00 am, and I couldn't sleep. Ash was coming back in an hour or so, and I hadn't talked to him since the day he left. He had left numerous calls, texts and emails, but I never replied. I couldn't. I would always get so upset when I saw his caller ID. I did answer Michael's Call once, but it was short, and no one found out.

I sat up, pulling my knees toy chest, and burying my face into them, and crying. He'll never talk to me again. He'll have nothing to do with me.

About an hour later, I felt a light tap on my shoulder. I looked up to she a very worried looking ashton standing above me.

"Hi" I mumbled.

"Emma I was so worried about you. You never spoke to me" he sat down next to me.

"I know. I'm sorry. I didn't know what to say"

he sighed, placing his arm around me.

"Don't be mad" I whispered shakily, and a tear rolled down my cheek.

"I'm not mad, don't worry about it" he said, wiping my face with his thumb.

"I just thought you wouldn't talk to me anymore"

"You know I could never do that. It'd be too hard" he chuckled, pulling me so my head was leaning into his neck, and kissing my head. "and what is that on your eye?"

"Dad again."

"about me?" he asked, concerned.

"no, you don't even want to know. Just as stupid as always"