Misfit

Chapter 11

11

I have tried so so hard not to cry over the last few days. I haven't slept very much over these last couple of nights. Everytime I close my eyes the image of Sarah and Matt kissing replays in my head and that only makes me cry even harder. I don't understand it at all. Just the other day Matt was complaining to me about how annoying Sarah is. Now he can't keep his lips to himself. I can't believe I fell for a such a two-faced jerk like Matt. But what I really can't believe is that I told him everything. I told him everything because I actually believed he was my friend. I'm just so confused about everything. How? How could he just complain to me and then go off and do his own thing? I haven't been to school in 3 days. I mean I didn't really have to since I already finished my work for the week. Plus why would I want to punish myself? But mom wants me to go back to school today. I begged her not to make me go but she's forcing it. So I got on my skin tight light blue jeans with my baby blue shirt and white converse. I curled my hair and added a lot of makeup to cover up the fact that I haven't slept very well. I grabbed a granola bar and headed out the door. I walked very slowly to school that day. Even though it was freezing I didn't wear a jacket. Mom packed up all my jackets and put them in the attic because I always wore Matts. But now it's sitting on the back of my chair. I know I should just give him back his jacket. But I'm not ready. I mean I'm pretty positively sure that I love him. Even though he ran right into Sarah's trap.  Just thinking about their kiss makes me tear up. "No Lola. You can't walk into school crying." But that didn't stop the tears from rolling down my face. I looked at the time and I realized I have an hour left. So I went to the soccer field instead. I mean all I would have to do is sit in the hall anyways. I walked to the field. The sun still starting to rise. I stood in the middle of the field, staring up at the sky. So much has happened. I looked around remembering the time Matt took me here after school that one day. I remembered when he ran into me in the hallway for the first time, when he defended me from Sarah, the time he took me to The Flip. All these memories running through my head has made me start to cry. "It's not fair!" I cried. "I did nothing to deserve this." I sat there on the field for a while and cried, the I decided to walk back to the school. When I got to my locker I saw them, Matt and Sarah, right in front of her locker which they both know is next to mine. I tried to go as fast as I could but of course it still hurt to see. So I just left. I got my books and I left. I couldn't do it. I took the long way to my first period class. Once I got there I saw Sarah sitting on my desk. I guess she took the short way. I just turned around and walked down the hall. It was Monday so all I technically had to do was just get my work. Plus there was 15-20 minutes left before class started anyway. So I guess I would just walk around the halls.
"Hey Lola wait up."
I knew it was Sarah's voice so I just continued to walk. I thought she gave up. So once I started to slow down I heard,"Lola" as soon as someone touched my shoulder.
"What Sarah?"
"I want to say sorry?"
This just got interesting.
"For what?"
"Stealing Matt. Oh wait. I'm not really sorry about that at all."
"Will you ever grow up?"
"Do you know who you're talking too?"
"A wannabe popular?"
"Wannabe? No sweetheart that's you."
"I'm not your sweetheart. Do I look like I like you? Because nobody really likes you....they just put up with you."
Then that's when she slapped me.
"What's your issue?"
"Nothing."
Then I was shoved to the ground.
"Sarah stop!",said Matt stepping into the issue.
"Matt?",said Sarah.
"Are you ok Lola?",asked Matt coming up beside me.
"Don't touch me.",I said as I got up and walked away.
I walked back to my first period and sat down. I put my head on my desk and I didn't raise it up till the bell rang. I quickly walked down the hall till I ran into somebody. I dropped all my stuff.
"I'm sorry.",said the voice.
I looked up and it was Matt.
"We keep meeting like this.", said Matt.
"I didn't want to meet you again. But I guess nothing seems to go my way."
After I said that statement I picked up my stuff and walked away. But of course that didn't stop him.
"You know I have a reason for doing what I did right?"
"What reason do you have for making me believe that you're my friend and me telling you everything then just leaving?"
"I can't tell you but I do have my reasons okay? Just please don't hate me."
"Why can you not tell me. And since when did you like Sarah?"
"I don't like Sarah. I actually hate her."
"I doubt that."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"I mean you say you hate her then you go and kiss her."
"Lola I have my reasons."
"You're reasons are because you like her. Face it."
"I don't like her!"
"Then explain why you're kissing her and holding her hand like you're her boyfriend."
"That's the thing I am her boyfriend. But I'm not really her boyfriend."
"What?"
"Lola all you need to know is that I'm doing all of this for you."
"No you're not. How is this for me?"
"I'm doing it to protect you! Sarah knows your secret and the only way she won't say anything is if I 'date' her!",he yelled.
As he said this all feeling dropped from my body. All thoughts flew from my head. Sarah knows? How? Before another thought came to my head everything turned black, and I hit the ground hard.

I'm sorry that I haven't been posting I've been busy with a lot of things. Plus I haven't had a computer to write on. I'm sorry about all this and I hope that you are enjoying the story. This chapter was cut short but I tried to make it interesting. Thank you!!!!