Tired of It All

Chapter 10: I can't Stop

Naruto pushed his sleeve back down. His mind wandered from the morbidity of harm to the sound of a started shower. He forgot Itachi was taking one. A blush ravished his face at the thought of his raven friend in the shower. He fought the thoughts of him naked, a pout formed. He jumped up from his current position and headed to the kitchen. Pulling out food and a pot, he needed to think of something else. By the time Itachi walked out Naruto was done with the food.

The Raven boy walked out of Naruto's room, baggy but not too baggy dark gray sweatpants that hugged his lower half well, a loose black tank. He still had a towel over his shoulders, his hair was no longer in his usual low ponytail. It draped over his shoulders, framing his face while a few strands invaded it. Naruto's stomach fluttered as he looked at Itachi. He couldn't stop himself from looking at his friend this way, and he didn't know why he was.

The blonde picked up two warm plates and brought them over to the circular table that only had two chairs. He placed one on either side of the table, Naruto decided he would actually cook instead of his usual ritual of cup ramen. It's not like he didn't know how to cook, it's just.. he was too lazy. Naruto looked down to keep from staring at Itachi as he announced that food was ready. Itachi walked over and sat down. He stared at his blonde friend who was in adorable pastel pink apron, which he might add, suited his physic very well. And to see ready food at the table, the Raven chuckled at Naruto's wife like behavior. This, of course, didn't go unnoticed by the blonde.

"What's so funny?" The blonde questioned.

"Hn.. oh just thinking about how wonderful of a wife you would make, " a smirk slipped across Itachi's face as he said this, this which caused his friend's face to turn as red as a tomato. He then began to stuff his flushed face with the now cooling food. This only made Itachi chuckle a bit more, and it seems the blonde has learned it is best not to question why Itachi laughs. The raven watched as his friend eat, it was so peaceful to him, the blonde seemed less sad, which was nice.

After they finished eating, Itachi set up the couch to look as comfortable as he could. Naruto giving him a quick goodnight before turning off all the lights and heading to his room. Itachi gave a soft smile to his blonde friend before they parted.

Naruto was in a deep sleep, twitching around once in a while. His face scrunched up with displeasure, his body began to ball up and his fist clenched. The boy was dreaming.. no, he was remembering, unwanted memories. The memories hazed, so unclear he could only make out colors and voiced but he just seemed to know it wasn't good. Whimpers escaped the blondes locked lips, his teeth grinding. 

Finally he forced his eyes to open, gasping for air as if he was drowning, his nails dug into his palm. Tears streaked down his cheek and he ran to the bathroom. The blonde knew all too well what he wanted, he felt his heart, it was like pins were slowly being pushed in. He hated the feeling, he wanted it gone. His simple tears turned into a downpour. Tears after tears, he tried to hold in his sobs but soon enough he bit through his lip, Naruto ripped open his bathroom drawer, searching, he found what he wanted. His addiction, the silver blade. His sobbing became louder and louder, he pressed down on a clear part of his arm, sliding it through his skin slowly, red quickly following along.

As expected, Itachi heard the noises that were muffled by thin walling. He couldn't quite pinpoint what it was but it was a noise and one that didn't sound too good. The raven got up quietly, he snuck through the place quickly, trying not to wake the blonde. But a surprise came to be, as he opened up Naruto's bedroom door, the blonde was not to be seen in his bed. More noises flowed through the room, they were louder this time, Itachi was worried, his little Fox friend wasn't where he should have been, the Raven looked over to where the noises have been coming from. A yellow lining under the door shined where Naruto's bathroom was. Itachi snuck over to it, pressing his ear against the door since he didn't want to walk in on anything... he didn't need too. The noises continued, loud enough now that he was near the source he could tell what they were, was Naruto crying? Itachi twisted the doorknob slowly and pushed open the door a little so he could peak in on his friend. Itachi's eyes widened to what he saw was happening. First, he noticed a red liquid staining the tile floor, his blonde friend curled up against the tub. Red spots stained parts of Naruto's pants, soon enough Itachi's eyes saw the whole image as it was. Naruto's eyes were puffy, his cheek and nose were red, but the rest of his skin was paled, his eyes were dulled. He held something against his arm, and each time he moved it, it created similar marks like the ones he had. Ones that were oozing out a red liquid he knew too well. When all this sunk into Itachi, what Naruto was doing finally clicked, Itachi quickly opened the door all the way. The door slammed against the wall hard, Itachi busted in, he couldn't hold an emotionless face, not with his friend like this. Itachi's eyes filled with plea, hurt and sorrow. He wanted to scream but felt as if his voice was gone, his voice was pained and cracked,

"Naruto!" 

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WOWOW  :) been a many but yeah here's like 5 chapter update. hope that makes up for the tardiness. There are like 11 n a half more chapters for me to get through. see yall later