school shooter { jayson }

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Out Of Love by Peter Manos (I highly recommend this)
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He looked so broken..so hurt..he looked dead.
My everything, my love, he..when he looks hurt or is physically, mentally hurt I can't help but feel hurt too.
He-he means so much to me, that if he ever left me..I-I couldn't handle it.
I get on my knees, the mud getting on my knees. I hug him, I wrap my skinny arms around is broad neck and hug him, so tightly I'm scared he couldn't breath. But, to cancel out my worries, he hugs me back twice as tight.
"I-I love you grayson, so so much.." he sighs and kisses my cheek.
"I do too james, I do too." But I know what he means, he means as a friend. He's not in love with me like I am for him.
But every time he says 'I love you' I like to think..he's saying it the way I want him to.

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I hug my self tighter and lean forward onto my desk, my eyes scanning over my book. I cross my legs and grip my arms tighter.
His hand is so soft, so warm I wish they would just run all over my body.
I-he's in my mind, I can't read, think, do anything without his face or his touch coming into mind.
I get out of my seat and walk to the teacher, "Excuse me mrs, my I go to the restroom?" She nods and I walk out of the room.
My arms still wrapped tight around me, I walk into the boys bathroom, I unwrap my arms and walk to the sink.
I turn on the faucet and run my hands under the cold water.
I splash my face, over and over again.
It doesn't work, nothing works, he's in my mind till the day I fucking die.
"Get out of my fucking head!" I scream and run my frail hands through my soft, brown hair. Tears start to stream out of my eyes, and I know they're not all because of Grayson, I've been holding in a lot..a lot of tears. And at that moment I decided, why not let them all go so I can be there fo grayson later.
Then the bathroom door opens and I regret crying here immediately.
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