Words can barely express how happy I am to become a sister. Although, by the time this kid is three I'll be driving. I never really wanted a sibling because I like having things to myself, but it gives me a reason to get better. I honestly want to be a good role model for this kid.
So, I now have a better reason for living. I mean, before I didn't have one at all. Also, this gives me a reason to stop cutting. I haven't done that in quite a while, though. I'm just really happy about this whole thing. When my dad told me, I couldn't stop smiling. It just seemed impossible. Now that I think about it, I've noticed my mom has stopped smoking. Like, she just hasn't. And I don't think I've seen my dad smoke around her.
If I'm correct, all of the talent I lack (which is quite a lot) will be given to this child. Cause, like, I don't have much. Think of it as Gloom. Her brother got all of the talents. Not her. I also hope it's a girl. I don't want to have to help with a boy.
But, we don't know the gender yet. I'm really eager to know, though. So, I hope it will be soon. AH. It just makes me so happy. Plus, my dad vowed to be there for this child. And, this kid won't have to deal with the hell I've been through, which will give it a better start at life.
Ugh, I'm just really happy about this whole thing.
