My Hero || n.g•

Chapter 19

The next day consisted of all the boys coming in and out of the house. With them on their phones and bringing stuff in and out. Matt stayed with me though because he wanted to make sure his 'best friend' was okay.

I am okay, I think mainly because of the medicine. The doctor explained to me over the phone it stops something in my brain so I'm not depressed. I don't even know, I'm not a doctor myself. If I don't take them I go into panic attacks so Matt made sure I took them.

That whole day me and Matt watched tv and just ate food.

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Today is now Mike's funeral.

I'm in my room looking at myself in the mirror. My black dress that has short sleeves that hugs my waist is paired with black flattops. My hair hangs in a fishtail and my makeup is a smokey black. I walk over to the my dresser and grab my pills that are sitting on top of it and take 2 of them.

I look at the time and it's 12. The funeral is at 1 so I went downstairs to the rest of the guys.

They are all dressed up in black dress shirts with dress pants and black shoes. They all look really handsome, especially Nash.

Nash's hair was spiked up with his blonde highlights making his blue eyes pop.

He comes up to me and gives me a huge bear hug. I breath in his scent and close my eyes enjoying his warmth. "The boys and I will be here will you the whole time." He explains. "Especially me" He whispers in my ear so no one else hears.

I smile up at him and pull away from the hug and give the rest of the guys hugs.

We finally make our way out of the house. We took 2 serperate cars.

One with Cam driving with Nash, me, Hayes, Aaron, and JJ. And the other with Jack driving with Shawn, Matt, Taylor and Carter.

The car ride was silent. The only thing you could hear was the soft music coming out of the radio. Nash sat next to me in the back and kept his hand on my knee for comfort.

We arrived in 30 minutes and all pile out of the cars. I walk to the doors of the funeral home to see my Aunt Linda. She was my mom's older sister. They look so much alike it hurts to see her.

I walk up to her and she opens her arms for a hug, "Hi hun." She says rubbing my back.

"Hi Aunt Linda." I say into her shoulder.

"I'm so sorry about Michael. Drunk drivers really need to stay off the road. It's a shame because that's how your mom went too" She explains sadly.

I give her a confused look and look at Nash. He nods his head giving me the 'just go with it' look. I nod my head and turn my attention back to my aunt. She looks behind me and asks, "Who are these boys?" I turn around glancing at them.

"These are the boys that have been helping me out for the past couple of weeks with the whole thing." I explain.

She nods her head. "Oh yes, I have spoken to Nash about the whole thing." I smile at Nash. She gives me a confused look, "What about your father. Where is he?"

Did I mention no one at all knows about what my dad has done to me? Not even my favorite Aunt who is like a second mother to me knows.

I stutter for a answer. "H-he uhm. Is really sick so he wasn't able to make it?" I say coming out more as a question.

She gives me a look of sorrow and nods her head. "Okay honey. We should get inside. Everyone is here and it's starting soon."

I sigh and nod my head. I then go back to the boys. "My Aunt said we should get inside." I say looking down. They all agree and make our way in.

My whole family is practically here. My cousins, Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents from both sides of the families were all in the crowded, sticky room.

I was never close to any of my family besides my aunt so it was surprising to see all of my family here.

I excused myself from the boys and make my way around the room greeting my family.

They all give me hugs and "I'm sorry's" I thank them, avoiding eye contact with the open casket in the front of the room.

I go back to the boys and they are all in a circle talking. I approach them and they turn to me. "You guys did a great job. Thank you." I say looking around the room.

They had flowers everywhere. In the front by Mike's casket I saw boards of pictures.

"It was no problem at all." Taylor said.

"Did you, uh, see Mike yet?" JJ asked. I took in a shaky breath, "No."

I'm scared to see him. Once I see him the realization of him being gone will hit me like a ton of bricks.

"Maybe you should go up there and say you final goodbye?" Hayes offers.

I look at Nash with pleading eyes. "I'll go with you." He says putting his hand on the small of my back leading me up to the front.

Let's hope this medication really works.