A New Beginning

I was drowning, feeling the water everywhere, no escape. In my mouth, my ears, my nose. I couldn't escape, I felt trapped...without knowing what to do...stuck. I tried to move my hands, but no result. My eyes...gosh my eyes hurt...I couldn't close them, I couldn't see anything either. With a little bit of focus, I knew where I was...MOM, DAD, OH GOD, NO! I tried to scream but I was underwater. I couldn't breath and I was...I was dying. In a few minutes while waiting for my death I felt a hand grabbing me out of the car. Air, air, I could feel the air again, the urge of breathing...my lungs were full of the water I inhaled, but as soon as I felt the air, I woke up completely from that kind of trance. I found myself on the ground, laying...am I still alive? Where am I?

"MOM...MOM, where are you? Where the hell is dad? HELP!" I started to scream feeling very down, feeling like my legs couldn't carry me anymore...and so, a headache put me down!

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My story starts in California. My name is Jaqueline Brown, but everyone calls me Jack, I know kinda strange. I have never felt the whole 'Jaqueline vibe' and I decided to be called this way for years now.

My life here in this beautiful, american city is amazing, a big high school like a whole dream, great friends that many teens would want these days, but it wasn't always like this, perfect...Every perfect thing has an end to it after all!

Two years ago, my father died in a tragic car accident, me and my mother were in the same car as him, but we were lucky, somehow we escaped.

For years I kept blaming myself for the accident, crying all alone every single night, not knowing what to do anymore and the relationship between me and my only parent got destroyed, crushed by both of us, by the silance between us every time we saw each other. I hated those days very much, they destroyed me, finished me!

Imagine being all alone, every night feeling broken, trying for months to find the lost parts of you that you think you no longer have, memories like the lost pieces that stop from solving the puzzle!

After a lot of time, I finally learned to forgive myself. Everything went well lately with everything, my mom, my life and even my grades from school, but in one normal day my mother, told me that she needed a big change in her life and that we should move in a small town named Black Creek.

Lots of different legends have been heard along the time. People that have entered the mighty town and never came back, stories to scare us.
NO, NO, NO, WE ARE NOT MOVING AWAY FROM CALIFORNIA! I was very sure of my response, but guilty at the same time.

A week had passed since the major thing that my mother wished, and I had been thinking of this ,,Beginning". This new thing in my life, our life.

I couldn't see my mother in pain anymore, it was obvious that she wanted, wished this very much, and maybe it was even better for me. I couldn't be selfish with her, after all these years she had been there with me. I couldn't let her feel sad, I needed to understand her, I had a responsability as her only daughter, to make my mom feel better. After hours of deciding and talking! We agreed to leave California, to leave the past behind, to leave everything that had ever hurt us.

Of course, leaving this place, where I have been living my whole life, a part of me broke into milion of pieces that day.

The hardest part was leaving my friends behind, my ex boyfriend now and everything I had in the last 16 years. But, I would do everything for my mom, she deserves the best.

Sunday, we left, I said my goodbyes to everyone and I swore to them that will remain in my heart forever, the piece of heart I will never let it brake, untouchable, the part that I will keep forever. And my friends will be always by my side, we will still talk over the phone, and my bestie, Jean, will come visit me anytime I need her.