rambles and shambles

rambles&shambles [poem]

rambles&shambles

i am going to try to lay my thoughts down for you to examine.
no holding back,
no distorting the truth.
the whole truth is that i need a second opinion.
i need a second opinion on the thoughts that plague my mind,
day and night.
i'm so sick and tired of things being the way that they are.
i notice everything i do wrong and yet i do nothing to stop it.
i'm so annoying,
repetitive,
i'm bad at listening,
and sometimes i struggle to find the energy to care.
all of this is wrong,
i know it is.
but i can't stop it.
i try,
trust me i do.
but it's so much easier to just ignore it.
my friends all see it.
i'm surprised they haven't said anything yet.
god knows i have a lot i wish to say to them.
i should say it, i know.
well.
some of it anyway.
even i know when to stop.
(sometimes at least)
this has turned into a ramble,
i'm sorry.
see! i care about some things.
just not others.
especially when i'm told about them:
every.
fking.
day.
this has been too obvious.
somebody might read this and know it's me.
or maybe i'm the first person they think of when they hear
'annoying'
'boring'
or
'bad listener'
and that hurts.
it hurts so much.
it's probably the case though.
oh well.
i'm trying to change.
i really am.
i promise!
it's a slow process though,
it always is.
-r

28-01-19       20:32     252 words