From the plane i can see the white mountains, people skiing down on it and the little city that we stayed at this weekend. The memories comes flashing in my mind. The good memories i've got to collect with Orlando and his friends, and after this weekend i'm positive there will be others to come.
In the plane with me only Markus came. Orlando went in another plane because he had to finish a project his working on outside of LA.
It's good though that we went separate ways for a moment, we just spent the hole weekend together and i don't know if i said that before, but Orlando is very clingy. I am too sometimes, but he totally beats me up on that subject.
So it's good that we have our space just for some days. We'll text each other of course.
"Markus i was so busy trying to make things work with Orlando that we almost didn't had time to talk. I hope you had fun on this trip too, besides being my comfort blanket" - i say. You probably thinking i'm a horrible friend dragging Markus here but if were him i'd do the same thing and he knows that.
"Girl, i thought you knew me better than that. You know i never leave home if its not for me to have fun. Don't worry. Orlando's friends are nice but at some point i had to get out of that house to go to a club or something. They're too much of a homebody for me. And i know you've been too this days" - he says and honestly he's not wrong. Everything we did, besides skiing, was inside the house. It was too cold for god's sake. - "But i met some pretty interesting people in that club"
"Humm someone i should know about?"
"Nah, you know my only lasting love is Pepper" - he says referring to his pet monkey.
After that it went kind of silent for a moment, i think Markus wanted to ask me about the weekend and what really happened between me and Orlando but something was stoping him. I don't what though.
"Markus what was your first impression of Orlando? Did you like him?" I finally ask.
"I mean... i didn't get the chance to know him yet. But you seem happy when you're with him. His seems to be a nice guy. But what about you? Do you see future in this?"
"I never dated anyone like him. He's so gentle and kind, I feel like he sees me. For example last night things hit up a little and we almost had sex, but i wasn't ready yet and it was a chance for me to see if he just wanted to get laid or was really liking me for who i am, so i stoped. And he reacted so well and said he would never force me into anything i didn't want"
"Wow he IS a nice guy"
"Yeah, so to answer your question I DO see a future in this" - i said smiling - "He said he would take me somewhere when he gets back to LA"
"Wooh let's see the scenes from the next chapters" - Markus said.
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During this past week all i've done was write a little bit and hang out with my friends and family. Since the Super bowl last year i decided to take a break for a while. I was emotionally and physically drained and really needed some rest. So for now i'm just collecting stuff and writing random things so i can put together later.
As Orlando said last week, he would take me somewhere for our next date. I don't know where that secret place is but i'm really exited.
I know it's silly but i miss him. We've been texting and calling each other for this past week but still i miss being by his side, being able to touch him.
Last weekend in Aspen made me think even more about what Angela said. That i'm too scared of being off the grind and not playing by the rules. And then came Orlando and took me right off my comfort zone and just lives life so freely and open, so authentic.
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How It All Started
Fanfiction"If you're not careful on whom or what you're directing your help you may not notice you're drowning trying to be everybody's anchor." It was Orlando who said that. It hit me hard. He had just described me in one quote. I was drowning trying to sav...
