Coffee Brews Love (BoyxBoy)

▪Chapter 5▪

[Lucas' POV]

I was wrapping up everything at the cafè, about to head home. I got my stuff and headed towards the door.

As I stepped outside I saw Yoshiro talking on his phone pacing back and forth.

What is he doing?

I stood still just waiting. I don't know why I was, but I was.

"Alright, that's fine just don't make any stupid decisions while I'm away. Ok bye." He hung up his phone and brought his hand up to his face sighing.

"Uhhhhhh" I said as I tilted my head questioningly.

He turned around and smiled at me cautiously. "Oh. Lucas! Hi there. I was just about to come inside."

Jeez what a fake smile.

"My shift is over." I said shifting my feet to walk away.

"Wait! Ummmm, well I wanted to ask you something..."

"Yeah?"

"Since your shift is over and my work is over, wanna go eat? Together..... me and you.... Right now...."

[Yoshiro's POV]

I was nervous. I've never really asked someone to dinner in a "romantic" way. Well, I don't know if it was romantic exactly, but you know. I'm trying here.

Lucas looked down at his feet as I studied how his black locks dangled around his green beautiful eyes I seem to get lost in quite often. But his eyes weren't bright like usual, they were clouded with emotion.

"I can't, sorry.." and with that he turned around and walked off.

........what?

"Well, that didn't go as planned." I turned to see Umeko leaned up against the door of the café with a funny look on her face.

"Y-yeah." I scratched my cheek awkwardly. What was that look in his eyes? It's almost as if... as if it hurt him somehow.

Umeko came up to me and put her hand on my shoulder giving me a pat, "Don't worry. I'm sure he just freaked a little. Give it time."

"Y-yeah I guess."

Umeko walked back into the café and I followed her in.

"Just black coffee"

"Wow, someone is in a bad mood." Umeko rolled her eyes.

"Yeah. Well my company's having issues, my dads giving me a shit attitude for no reason, and I don't even know what just happened with Lucas. So yeah, I'm a little frustrated I guess."

Umeko titled her head in a sad manner. She turned around fixing my coffee without another word.

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[Lucas POV]

I sat down on a bench taking a break from walking. Did I hurt his feelings? I wasn't trying to be mean.

I just.... I just can't. Whenever I start imagining me in a relationship with anyone I shudder from disgust.

I mean he just asked me to dinner but with "obvious intentions".

I could tell he was going to make it a date. Just by the excitement and nervousness in his eyes.

"Damn my mom's life really had a impact on me I guess." I said under my breath as I looked up at the sky. The pale blue color was invaded by dark grey clouds.

I swore to myself a long time ago I wouldn't let her ruin relationships for me.

It was gonna rain. I sighed heavily and got back on my feet.

I could hear the echo from my shoes hitting the cold pavement as I stared ahead of me, lost in thought.

I was miserable.
Would I ever find love?
Did I even want to attempt to love and be loved?
The more I think about it the more nauseous I get.

The situation had triggered me.

It wasn't long until I got home. I walked up the stairs and went in my room. Of course no one was home, like always.

I shut my door and pressed my back against it. That's when it hit me.

The tears slowly but surely started falling down my face.

My eyes started to sting and a lump formed in my throat. I slid to the ground slowly and let it all out.

Why am I like this? And how the hell do I fix it? I can't be like this. I hate this feeling. Anytime someone would even hint at liking me I will shove them away without any hesitation.

It was just him asking me to dinner, what the hell?! Why am I breaking down over this?!

I hate that the thought of falling in love..... disgusted me.

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Hey guys, I know its been a loooooooong time since I've posted. So here ya go~