My alarm clock signaled for me to get up an hour earlier than usual. I rolled over to hit the snooze button, and missed. Then again and again.
"Ugh!" I groaned opening my eyes and sitting up, finally hitting the snooze button. I sighed realizing I have to catch the bus, and Chris would no longer be picking meup in the morning. Tears welled up again. I wiped them angrily. Im tired of crying over him. Hes not worth my tears. I realized that around 4 Am this morning and here I am awake at 5:40. I guess that early night turned into a late night special of my tears. I stayed up all night wondering what I could have done wrong? Where did I go wrong? When did I go wrong? I got out the bed and grabbed a shirt and a pair of sweats. Now that Chris and I are no longer together, I don't have to worry about my appearance. I brushed my teeth in a hurry and put my hair in a low ponytail. I have 20 minutes to run a mile to the bus stop. Oh well I have to get in shape for track season anyway. I grabbed a hoodie, my purse and my books, then sprinted for the bus stop. Hoping I left nothing behind.
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God I wish I would have grabbed a coat or something. Im freezing through this thin hoodie. I took my mp3 from my purse and plugged it into my ears and tried to find a song to take my mind off of Chris. My phone vibrated in my back pocket. A text from Lisa, but I still had 13 new text messages from last night
Lisa: Good Morning Rai J Me: Hey Lisa... Lisa: Cud you tell Chris to stop by McDonalds. Ill pay em back. Me: ... Im not riding with Chris Lisa...?
I then set my phone back to idle and put it back in my back pocket. The bus was pulling up, so much for taking my mind off of Chris. I tried to switch to another song with a faster beat. Now I wish I listened to rock. Every song in my list reminded me of Chris. I sighed giving up and just letting the music play as I boarded the bus and took my seat next to a middle aged woman. She looked like she hadn't slept in days. I wondered if I looked the same way to her.
My phone was vibrating like crazy, but I refused to answer. I rested my head in my hands. This is going to be a long day for me I thought to myself. The middle aged woman next to me tapped me signaling this was her stop and she needed to get out.
"Sorry." I said as I stood moving to the side to let her out. I sat back in the seat and watched the road waiting for my stop. I pulled the rope above the seat signaling my stop. I unloaded the bus and realized im still about a block away from the school. I sighed and speed walked up the steep hill. Got to stay in shape even in the winter time I guess. As I walked up the sidewalk of the school I saw flyers being put up for the winter ball. I felt like a ball was stuck in my throat that I couldn't swallow. It was forcing tears to my eyes. Just the fact that I had imagined me and Chris dancing on cloud 9 at the winter ball... Oh well, I thought, trying to force tears back, he can dance with Shalay now. Shes all his and hes all hers now.
I finally decided to check my text messages. Two unread messages from Lisa. 5 from Chris, a few good morning text messages and one text from an unknown number
Unknown Number: Forgive Chris. It wuz a 1 time thing, and really loves you. He's practically begging for another chance. Will you forgive him?
Im practically speechless. I mean he hurt me. Why is he hurt so bad? Why does he want a second chance so bad. I messaged the stranger back. Not caring who it is.
Me: I forgive him, but not for him, for me, but I will NOT give him another chance. He betrayed my trust, and he cant take that back.
I then put my phone on idle again and slid it back in my back pocket for the rest of the day.
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