Imprints of Imperfection

Illegitimate love

This heart is heavy, your scent still lingers.
I know your heart has none of me,
but you'd be the one I'd reminisce if I could cast a patronus.
I see you with her everyday, a fleeting kiss here, a little rub there, you caressing her cheek,
while my heart beat gets weak.
Hollow, void, empty so many words but not a single one,
to describe how I feel.
Numbness prevails, I go insane on the inside.
But your happy eyes make me happy weak, alright.

I remember that day when I told you,
I know how to hide my shadows in shade.
That is the day I knew you would just fade.
Fade away from my life,
like every spring does,
Leaving it's teasing fragrances behind.
I did not want to change things between us;
But you wanted me to say it.
So it happened I bled it all out.
And like the spring,
you did not leave in peace.
You welcomed the scorching summer for me.

But look at me I was a woman, but now I am that naive girl again;
fallen for your honey coated lies.
You opened my heart, bared my soul and left me to stitch myself whole in isolation; again.
Was it a fair play?
On your part yes; but my heart wanted you to stay.
You made this woman, a teenage girl again.
All giddy, rainbows and unicorns.
Sighed, those were the feels.
Yet again, I know it was all my fault.
To fall for your beautifully knitted lies.
I know your love for her is legitimate,and vice-a-versa.
But I'm fine even if mine is illegitimate.
I'll love from afar.
Offer you my care,
my comfort
my home
and perhaps my heart.
So when your feet ache again,
you come and find your
solace: here, again.