I can't believe it. Just like that, he's gone.
I didn't move from that spot, i sat there for awhile, thinking.
I got a text from Zoey
"Hey I had to leave and I couldn't find you, sorry" it said
great now how am I supposed to get home.
"Can you come get me? I'm at the carnival" I sent that to Kian without even thinking.
"Sure :)" he replied
I got out from in between the tents and stood out in the parking lot.
A couple minutes later Kian's car pulled up, I got in.
"thanks for picking me up." I said
"No problem"
We just sat there silently until he said something.
"So did you and Sam make up?" he asked
"Well, kind of. he said we should take a break from each other, and get back together when we're ready" I said
"Oh..does that mean you can see other people for now?" he asked
"I guess"
We pulled up to my house.
"Thanks.." I paused "Do you wanna come in?" I asked
he hesitated
"Sure" he replied.
we both went in and sat on the couch.
"I'm sorry about you and Sam" he said
hearing his name I just started crying
"Amanda please don't cry"
he lifted my head up with his hand and we looked into each others eyes
"Don't kiss him, don't kiss him" I said in my head. too late
I'd already leaned in and our lips touched..it wasn't just a peck, it was a make out session
he started leaning back, bringing me with him.
after awhile, he pulled away.
"Amanda stop" he said
"What?" I said as I got up
"I know you're just doing this because you're hurting, it's not right" he said
"I though you liked it..?" I said.
"well I do, but I know you don't mean it" he said
"You're right Kian, I'm sorry" I said
"I should go" he said
"Kian please tell me I didn't ruin anything" I said
"You didn't, it's me, I've hurt you too much it hurts to see you" he said
"Kian, that doesn't mean we can't be friends" I said
"Why would you wanna be friends with me Amanda? I cheated on you, you should hate me." he said
"I know that Kian, and I forgive you" I said
he smiled and walked out the door.
I didn't want to think anymore, so I just went to bed
