Chasing Harry - LS [2013] [2/3]

Chapter Three; By Now

WARNING GUYS; this chapter may cause tears. sorry. 

After this Chapter things will have more action and less angst and sappy and depressed people. ahahaha, hopefully right?

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Chapter Three; By Now    

Louis

It was a few minutes passed six in the afternoon as I sat on the living room couch with the laptop on my lap. I let out a sigh; I was honestly getting bored of doing nothing all afternoon. But, I wasn’t all in the mood to hang out with the lads and hear about their love lives along with having to record the album. It’s just too personal to concentrate to this point.

            I’m a mess and I don’t know how to work out of it.

            All I know is, scrolling down Twitter and reading a bunch of tweets from fans is if I were to see Harry right now, I’d most probably die.

            Well, no.

            I’d just probably shatter in more pieces, as if I hadn’t enough already.

            Harry leaving was just so uncalled for.

            I thought he felt the same as me. I thought once he said those three words, he wouldn’t leave me. He’d mean them so much that he wouldn’t even think of leaving me no matter what had happened. With the fact that he left right after that night we spent when we made love―well, it’s what it was for me―just makes me feel disgusting because I feel like I did something wrong, like it was because we were so intimate that it pushed him away from me.

            If it is, I think that would break me some more as well.

            I’ve never been with a lad the way I have with Harry. And, as much as I don’t show it, I’m scared for us. I’ve never done anything with a boy and being with Harry it just seemed so natural. But, I don’t know as much as I say I do much less as confident as I say I am. With everything that happened with Harry since that accident―hell before it, when we made ourselves ‘official’ and actually started dating; that’s when I started being confused on how to be in a relationship but then I pushed it away because I knew that I had to keep myself composed for Harry and it became more of a job once he lost his memory.

            And when he left, I just came crashing down.

            Looking at my computer screen I could feel my head spin as my mixed thoughts just shoved themselves all over.

            I guess it’s true with that they say; Sometimes the one you want is not the one you need.

            The difference in this is that I do need Harry.