𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐑

여섯

❝i don't even wanna fuck, i just like you.❞

i lean against the railing, looking over the city lights and the star-filled night sky. i wonder how long it would take until people would find out. are people really this clueless? i've carelessly left evidence that would have definitely been a critical hit against me.

maybe people are just too blind to really see what is going on. they only hear. they don't care to look into it. as a child, i never really wanted to go outside, because outside, is just full of negativity and lies.

but i had to.

i exhale a puff of smoke, closing my eyes and feeling the light breeze. sunshine and rainbows my ass, they only tell that to children to make sure they don't fuck up in life. maybe it's just me. maybe i can't write a thousand apologies but fuck, i can definitely tell the truth.

i never liked lies, which is ironic since i've been lying my whole life, and i still am. people decide to slack, to be lazy; while there are other people who are working their damned asses off just to make a living. some even dying. i cackle and throw the cigarette down, stepping on it.

i sit down on the dirty rooftop floor.

is life really just a bogus? fake? to me; it is. life is just there, we don't have a genuine reason to live. we get born, we go through puberty, some living, some dying, and then at the end we just die.

"it's either kill or get killed in this world full of pigs." i sigh as i let out an airy laugh. i play with my lighter, staring at the flame going out, and on again. the rabbit is really just my coping mechanism. i kill to get the satisfaction of something i'll never get.

"happiness." i hissed as i threw my lighter over the railing, surely hitting somebody or something.

murdering people, innocent or guilty, it doesn't matter. we'll die anyway, it doesn't matter how young or how old. people die every day, if not, then get sick every day. i was sick too, she was sick too. maybe that's what really snapped me.

"eunbi, how is it up there? was it euphoric to let go?" i ask, in particular, no one. "tell me, did you really have to leave me to be in utopia? DID YOU REALLY HAVE TO LEAVE ME HERE TO SUFFER ALONE?!" i shout, fuming with anger. i stand up, my chest heaving up and down, my breathing irregular and heavy.

"eunbi... i..."

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"jungkook, your new song is absolutely amazing!" seokjin compliments as he takes a sip of the mocha latte i bought for him. "of course it is! i was the one who sang it." i gushed as he only laughs at me. "of course." he smiles.

"hey, jungkook, you said you weren't dating anyone at the moment... have you ever dated someone?" i get caught off guard by jin's sudden question. i ponder for a moment.

"well, yeah, technically, i guess you could say." i replied. "technically? how so?" jin continues, inquiring me. "well, this one girl, let's call her... rosé. we would go on some road trips, picnics together. but it was never mentioned that we were, quote on quote, "dating". it was more of a silent romance. we enjoyed each other, for a while until she... disappeared." i answer, my mind drooping as i recall the memories of us.

"oh... i shouldn't have asked. it'll get better soon, kookie!" seokjin reassures me. "it sure will." i mumble in response, smiling sadly.

"hey, i had an idea! there's this guy that's been looking for a date for a while now, but he's so picky he never gets caught by a hook! i'm sure you'll like him! aside from his annoying nature, he's really sweet and adorable." jin suggested, sipping his drink.

"i don't know jin... i'm pretty busy right now... i only managed to convince my manager to go meet you, honestly it was 50/50." i sigh. he stares at me with his big, doe, puppy eyes. "come on! i haven't been on a date with yoongi in forever and my friend has been really lonely nowadays! don't make me sad!" he needled as he pulled on my arm.

i feel my cheeks heat up so i had no choice but to agree, "fine! i'll convince my manager to let me go somehow. when?" i ask him, who was doing a weird, victory dance... my poor eyes... "oh! uh, well, i haven't really given it much thought but i thought maybe this friday? there's this amusement park that had recently opened up and i've been dying to check it out!" seokjin beams as he bounces slightly.

"alright, i think i will be available that day? it just depends on my hectic schedule." i answer, smiling at him.

"great! oh heck! i have to go now! i'm helping my mom, she recently moved here and i promised to help move her things, i'll see you friday, 5 pm!" he shouts and grabs his things, turning around and running.

i chuckle.

"perfect timing."

who is this mystery man that jin wants to hook up w jungkook?? if you guys answer correctly i will post the next chapter 🤧