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Hyungwon POV

I wasn't fully asleep, so I could clearly feel his chest moving up and down unsteady, trying to catch his breath.

"Oh my god, Hoseok, did I hurt you? Is everything alright?!", I asked a little panicked, instantly removing my hands away from his waist. He didn't say anything, just shaked his head, biting on his lower lip. I could see the tears which build themselfs in his eyes, making my heart hurtfully jump. I shouldn't think he's beautiful - not at this moment. But shit, he was.

"What happened? Is it my fault?", I asked again, carefully wiping away his tears. He shaked his head again, causing a little sigh slip above my lips in relief.

If I wasn't the reason for this, then...

"Don't think about him, I beg you. He ruins your beautiful smile.", I whispered while still wiping away tears which continued to fall out of his eyes, making its way over his cheeks to the pillow. I haven't seen anyone cry besides myself and Kihyun, when he outed himself in front of his parents. He wanted me to be by his side back then, so he wasn't alone facing one of the most important moments of his life.

He didn't respond, instead just looked into my eyes, slowly calming down. I let my hand slip through his soft hair, playfully twirling a strand of it between my fingers.

"You shouldn't cry over someone like him. You deserve better. I know it hurts you a lot, but please, just focus on something else." I leaned down, not controlling my body anymore, placing a little kiss on his right cheek. "Focus on me." I continued to mumble, clearly aware of his widened eyes watching me, but nevertheless I leaned down again and kissed the other cheek. "I'm begging you. Focus on me. I'll make sure that you won't get hurt like this again." My voice cracked a little at those words, but I couldn't help it. My heart jumped way too fast against my chest, my face heated up. I was totally unsure what I did or said here right now... but it didn't matter. My body moved on its own, not asking me for permission for anything.

He stopped crying, lips a little parted, letting out heavy breaths. I leaned in a little more, lips now only a few inches away from each other.

"Hyungwon...", he whispered against my lips, causing me to snap out of my trance. What am I doing here?! I don't have any rights to do what I did just now, he was still totally in love with Kihyun.

"Sorry." I whispered back, lifting my head and placing a soft kiss on his forehead instead, pulling away and turning myself around, facing the wall.

What drove me just now?! I kind of confessed to him, even if I haven't told him exactly what I felt. My hand clenched into the material of my shirt, trying to calm down my heartbeat. It kind of... hurted. It kind of felt like someone pushed a hundred needles right into my heart, painfully slow to make sure it hurted the most. I was totally not used to that feeling. But all I could think about right now, was he's in love with someone else. Get that inside you head already, Huyngwon. Even if he wouldn't be, he would never fall in love with someone like you.

I heard something rustle behind me, than felt how the matress sunk a little under me, before I could feel shaking hands on my back, carefully shoving them above my sides to my chest, searching for my hand. Hesitantly his fingers curled themself around mine, squeezing them a little, making my heartbeat fasten up again.

He didn't say anything. And all I could do was moving my hand too, intertwining our fingers with each other. After a short time, he pressed his chest against my back and cuddled his head in my neck, hot lips moving above hot skin, pressing a little soft kiss on it.

"Why are you always there for me, when I need you? Even if I didn't call. Even if you couldn't know I needed you at this moment...", he whispered against my neck, making me loose my mind.

"Maybe because faith brought me to you.", I quietly answered, carefully pressing his hand against my chest.

OKAY I CONFESS I'M A LITTLE EMOTIONAL RIGHT NOW. AND I LOVE IT. HOPE YOU DON'T MIND. LOVE YOU ALL <3