02/04/2019
Watching Daehan, Minguk and Manse is the only thing that makes me laugh rn Hahaha They are soo cute. huhu I want to have one.....triplets? hahaha Oh. I saw one of this video in youtube.. gumagawa ng Sims version ng each blackpink member tas sobrang galing. I was so tempted to send the link to you but then, HAHAHA blinock mo nga pala ko and oh...we're on a break ngayon.
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Sobrang torn ako whether maghahabol na ko sayo or aantayin kong habulin mo na ko.. Ikaw yung unang mag-approach.. But I know I couldn't take this any longer. I dont think O could heal being like this.. Instead, I want to propose to you something. Something that wont bother of us not being together, are you even bothered? ( well, im kinda assuming from your tweets ) huhuhu And btw, naiinis si mama dun sa laptop nya mga last week ata? and I mentioned to her na you can do something about it.. tas kanina sinabi nya saken na ipa-ayos ko raw sayo yung laptop. And I was like... sasabihin ko ba na walang tayo ngayon or sasabihin kong busy ka or both? hmmm
Bale di ko rin pala pinalitan yung name mo sa contacts ko.. so niloloko ko lang talaga sarili ko.. isip ko lang parang nasa manila ako ganyan.but then, ive been waiting for your messages. Pero wala talagang dumadating.. You can endure that well no? hay hay
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I had this dream, I knew it was vivid when im in that dream kaso nung nagising na ko for real nakalimutan ko huhu and i cant seem to remember. Pero ofc sa later I had the power nanaman. Techy namam raw amp.
Oh btw.. Im going sa Lucena punta kami Cagbalete. I mentioned it na kay Rhea. At first I asked her if we can go sa Borawan.. our first beach together. Then she and her sister arranged everything tas last night, I ask her na kahit wag na beach, i just want to soul search but then it's too late her Ate arranged everything na so yeah i dont have any choice. But this time, it's not in Borawan, it's in Cagbalete na. Since I'll leave tomorrow and probably be home by wednesday morning I'll ask my coach sa gym kung pwede by thursday na lang training since may sched dapat kami on wed morning. So ayon! Cardio na lang siguro ulit ako on wednesday afternoon.
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I decided to went to church kanina after gym. Pero bumili muna ako ng sweet potatoes ( fitspiration mo na ba ko? ) Well, today you actually blocked me na sa twitter..ganon na ba ko kaistorbo sayo? Sshh bawal tong thoughts na to. Hmm little did you know hahaha or I know you have an idea e kase namention ko sayo to dati na meron akong isa pang account sa twitter. hehe so ayon. I guess ayaw mo na talaga muna ng kahit anong connections with me? Are you moving on? 😔 okay then.. pero all of these..im doing it not only for myself but also for you. I want to be good enough for you. I love you.
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Btw, today I started boxing again grabe after 2 rounds mahilo hilo na ko Haha pero thank you sa A.F na sponsor ang chocolate hehe i felt good na. Tapos nag Abs exercise na rin ako ang sakit huhu but ill work this on haha
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I talked to Mau... and today ive decided. I will trust you on this. I'll also trust myself on this. I wont bother you anymore. Although I know deep down inside me, I'll always be waiting for you to approach me again.. It's really time for me to heal. I'll love myself. I'll be back I promise. By that time, I'll love you more than I can. I love you my DJ.
Actually binbawi ko na ata yung decision na yon
