7:37 pm - 12 of October 2016, 1 year ago
I looked down, my feet at the edge, still water down below. The cool breeze blew against my hair, soft locks falling onto my eyes. The birds sang a sweet tune, the fish made small ripples in the water, I stood on the edge of a bridge. Spreading my arms I let my mind wonder.
This could be the last thing I see, before I go. The water would still again, the birds would sing, everyone would go on....except them. Why can't they let me go? I'm longing for the eternal darkness, yet, they put their hopes and dreams inside of me and I can't let that go. I can't fail them, my promises would be broken- they would be broken. I don't want them to be broken...like me. I'm chained to them, my existence is here, because they keep me here. I live for them, not for me.
If I fall... Yoongi would pull all nighters eating nothing, Namjoon would work himself to the brink of exhaustion, Hobi and Jimin would practice too hard and Jungkook and Tae wouldn't have someone to talk about their problems to.
Why can't give myself a reason to live?
I know everything would crumble without me yet I can't live for myself. My desire not to exist outweighs the responsibilities I keep, and I'm conflicted with my thoughts.
I can't make them cry...
They don't care about you.
I can't do it.
It's just a step and a fall.
I can't do it.
Why would they need you anyways, anyone can take my spot.
I CAN'T DO IT.
A headache formed. I held my head, the pain increasing and becoming unbearable. Thoughts ran around, a war inside ones mind, tearing everything apart.
I slipped off the edge, landing on my butt, and ran, drowning out the voices in my head.
9:22 pm - 12 October 2016
7 missed calls from Joonie, 9 missed calls from Yoongi, 20 missed calls from Kookie, 8 missed calls from Chimmie, 8 missed calls from Hope, 30 missed calls from TaeTae. 100+ messages from "Jinnie's babies"
"Hey it's Jinnie here, my phone is either turned off, on silent, or I am busy with work. Please leave a message~"
"Jin-hyung, where are you?"
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