I'm Still Here

Aftermath

"What?"

"He died, Elizabeth, he DIED, he is dead, gone!" Mikey screams.

"How?" I says suddenly feeling overwhelmed.

Drew hugs me, "Heart attack, I'm so sorry."

I push Drew off of me and burst into tears. I run out of the room and up the stairs to my room. I collapse on the floor and cry. This unbearable pain washes over me.

This is too much, I crawl into the bathroom and grab my razor.

"I'm coming with you Dad," I say staring at the ceiling. I press the razor against my skin.

Knocks on the door prevent me from breaking skin. "Sweetheart," Ash says, "you okay?"

I try to keep quiet, but I sob.

Ash rushes in and hugs me. "Baby, hand it over, please," she grabs the razor and slowly takes it away from me. "Come on, stand up," Ash helps me up and lays me in bed. "I'm going to go get Danny, okay? Don't move, do you understand?"

"Ya," I manage to say before curling into a ball and crying.

Danny arrives seconds later, sprinting to me. "Lizy, what's wrong? What happened? Are you okay?"

I shake my head, he grabs me and lays next me. Danny strokes my hair and shushes me. He rocks me and kisses my forehead. I cuddle into him and cry against his warm chest.

3 days pass and I don't leave my room. I barely leave my bed, the only reason I do is because Drew forces me to shower and cause I need to use the bathroom. Even then I have to have a chaperone, most the time it's Ash others it's Drew or Danny.

I don't know how Mikey is. I haven't heard Drew or Danny talk about him and I haven't seen him. He is probably at Mom's or sobbing in his room like me. Mikey might seem like a badass but he loves Mom and Dad so much.

On the sixth day Drew goes to Mom's so help Mikey and Mom with family stuff. Danny stays in my room and makes me go everywhere with him.

"Aren't I allowed to be alone while you get a glass of water?" I ask playing with the sleeves of my sweater.

"Baby, I love you, but-" Danny starts.

"You don't trust me," I say a little hurt.

"Of course I trust you!" Danny kisses my forehead.

"Then leave me alone for 5 minutes to get a glass of water," I say.

"I'll be back before you can say the name of our favorite song," Danny says sprinting out of the room, I hear him thumb down the stairs.

I run into the bathroom and search for my razors. I finally found them and I lock the door. I lean against the wall across from the door and press the razor against my wrist. I didn't mean to press that hard. Within seconds drops of blood run down my wrist and splat onto the tile. I do it again and again and again. 4 deep blood shuts bleed.

The handle on the door rattles, "ELIZABETH, open the door!" Danny screams slamming into the door.

I start feeling dizzy and scared. I start to cry and mumbling "I don't wanna die." Then it went black.