Heal Me

Start Again (17) (Wattpad Update)

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Anjali smiled at him as walks inside "Not from too long. We were coming to meet Khushi and check if her mood is ok now and just when we were on door, we heard you talking and telling her that I and Akash can help her with English and after that whatever you said."

Akash comes to stands beside Khushi and encircles his one arm around her shoulder "I don't know exactly what you guys were talking and why Bhai suddenly agreed to your wishes but from whatever little we have heard, I agree with him. I respect your wishes, I have told this to you before also but we can't leave you all alone now. You're my another sister now, that to little one. You have to listen to me and I like Bhai's idea of completing your studies first. I will help you in studies and anything you want me to do."

Anjali also nodded and Khushi looks at them through tears, her Devi Maiyya really loves her otherwise why would she bless her with these amazing people around her. They have accepted her in such open arms like she was always a part of them. She opens her mouth to say something but Arnav beats her in that "I think we should leave her alone now. Let her think and decide what she wants." He looks straight at Khushi before continuing "Have some sleep, there is no rush. I'll wait for your reply."

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Khushi smiled looking at herself in the mirror as she remembers what happened yesterday. Arnav ji finally understanding and deciding to support her though with his conditions but that doesn't matter. She can now clearly understand that he was just making sure of her safety and to think about it, practically he is right on his place. Akash ji, Anjali ji and Lavanya are also being really supportive and she can feel, it's all genuine.

She walks down the stairs, slowly but smilingly thinking about how her life will be changed the moment she tells about her decision to Arnav. She knows that it's not going be as easy as it seems but she also knows that she is not alone this time. She have some amazing people who are standing beside her, to support and guide her, whenever she needs.

She smiles feeling Arnav's concerned gaze upon her as she silently ate her breakfast but she didn't look at him. She can't wait to tell him about her decision but not like this, not in front of everyone. He is the one who is thinking about her every comfort, every wish and safety. She still feels it difficult to believe that he is the same ASR, who used to insult her, who used to enjoy making her life difficult and today, that same man is standing beside her as her strongest pillar to support, a wall to shield her from every bad and keep her safe.

Arnav was pacing inside his room, feeling restless thinking about how Khushi avoided to even look at him at dining table. I hope she is not angry about yesterday. How can I forget she is not used to taking orders when it comes to her personal life. She always used to fight back and now she is avoiding him. I hope she is not doing that because she feels that she have to bear everything because she is living here.

His chain of thoughts stopped abruptly thinking about what his own heart hinted at. Now he understands why Khushi wants to move out and earn for herself. Somewhere this thing will always stop her from living on her own will, from voicing out her own wishes. Her self respect and etiquettes will never allow her to demand anything or speak more than necessary if she keeps living under his or his family's shadow.

He have always seen her living on her own terms and voicing out whatever she feels. She is not someone who bow downs for her selfish reasons if she feels or finds something wrong. If somehow him or his family manages to stop her from moving out, she will always feel obliged and won't be able to voice out her own feelings and wishes and if that happens, then the Khushi they all know will be lost somewhere. Though he knows that he is not doing any favor by supporting her and taking care of her safety but she will feel indebted, like she is already doing.