Depression

Chapter 5

You matter you are loved don't let them till you different. Never give up, your beautiful in your own way. It's okay to be different I wear two different shoes shorts all year around yes in the winter to. My hair is all was three four different colors and I don't care what anyone say's. Just be you never and I mean Never chance for anyone. Be proud of your self it  don't matter if you weight 100 pounds or 600 pounds you will all was be beautiful. Wake up and be proud of your self if you like to wright, draw, or what ever but your mind to it and don't stop what you believe in. You stop when you reach your goal then look at the people that told you. You will never be able to do it look at you are stupid. Stand up and be like because of you for all was bringing me down I did this all by my self with my own support. Brag about it make your self proud make your self happy do what you want so you can be happy. If it makes you cute everyone of in your life do it. I have like three friends because they are there for me. They support me in everything I do and they listen. Know one else would do that not even my own family. I didn't have a dad all my life there are times where i didn't want my mom I wanted my dad but he wasn't there. I love to go fishing, play football, basketball, I had to play them things with my baby brother and his friends sometimes my uncle took me fishing. Even tho he didn't like my mom you figured he would want to be in his kids life but nope that killed me everyday. Don't get me wrong I love my mom and would do anything for her but. 6) she was there but it seemed like all she was worried about was her drugs yes she was on drugs. With my depression and anxiety I had to all was worry about her. That made everything ten times worse for me. She was all was in and out of jail. But I am proud of my mom it's been four years now she as been cleaned. I loved school I never missed a day cause I new when I was there I had know worry in the world my problems was gone. My favorite class was art that's because I love crafts. If you ever need someone to talk to please reach out to someone. Don't let it built up inside the more it builds up the more you let your self down. Everyday someone ends there own life cause people so rude, and snobby don't let them get to you. I know what is it like and here I am still here living the life like I never had lol. It doesn't matter if you came from a rich or poor family. We all bleed the same we all have feelings. You see someone getting bullied stand up for them. I am not going to lie when i was in 12th grade I bullied this girl because everyone else was. Only why I did is because I thought I would make new friends and fit in with the others. I did it for a week then I stopped cause I never i was fighting depression and know one new. Now what if she was fighting the same battle know one new about it and she want home and ended it all. Her family would be upset and crying so hurt and asking why would you do this she was so sweet and never bothered anyone. So the next day I want up to her and told her that I was very sorry I didn't mean to do what I did to you and we been friends ever since. We hang out had party's and sleep over's all the time she was like a sister I never had. It was like we new each other for years.