If Looks Could Kill, I'd Be Dead.

stage 11

Tyler POV (omg look at that)

"Dallon where'd Ryan go?" i looked at him worried. "I-i don't know, h-he just yelled a-at me and ran away."he stuttered "oh god, no" i have to think. josh came up behind me and held me "josh what if he gets hurt? he's my best friend i just started getting closer to him again! it's been forever i can't lose him again josh."i started crying holding on to him as he rubbed my back. "Its okay baby, lets go look for him, okay?" i nodded and calmed down a little "okay, Dallon can you check the hospital? And take Sarah there. Um Brendon and josh can you go to Ryan's house? Please, i have to check somewhere very important." i said walking toward the cemetery.

Ryan POV again

"Dad i'm sorry... i'm sorry that i didn't live up to your expectations, and that i like guys and never got to tell you. That i'm not the son you wanted. I feel like i failed you and mom. I can't do anything to make it better now that you're gone. Dad? remember Jenna she's Tyler now (a/n :P) so i hope you can accept my best friend for how they are because its been years since he and i talked to you last because memories are a hurricane of emotion and i wish you didn't overdose but it's okay i still love you and-"

"Ryan, are you okay?" i looked at Tyler and shook my head "i yelled at him Tyler, i didn't even have a reason. i'm so fucking selfish i act like i should get everything i want. i don't know what to do Tyler, what if he tells Brendon what i said or finds out that i like his boyfriend? what should i say to him? Dallon's so nice and he's trying for Brendon cause i'm his friend and i yelled at him." i started to cry harder i was freaking out my breathe got heavy and kinda sporadic deep but shallow breaths filled the air i know what's happening it's a panic attack. 

"Oh my god Ryan breath just breathe it will be fine nothing bad will happen you'll be fine." i focused on any and everything else and my breathing calmed and i fell asleep on Tyler.

Brendon POV (hot damn)

I got a text from Ryan

Ryan: hey it's Tyler come to the cemetery and bring josh

Me: okay

I found josh upstairs and told him that Ryan and Tyler were at the cemetery. We started walking there and when we arrived we saw Ryan and Tyler laying on the floor. Ryan was asleep on Tyler's shoulder, he looked so at peace, different to how he sleeps at the hospital. He looks kinda cute.

 "Will you carry him back to the hospital? I don't want to wake him, he needs his sleep." Tyler says. I nodded and pick him up. He grabs my shirt lightly and nuzzles my chest. then Tyler took a picture "blackmail." he states. We walk all the way to the hospital together. When we get there Spencer starts talking to Tyler and josh a little scared and mad. I laid him down in his bed. 

"I'm sorry." Ryan states sleepily and goes back to his deep slumber. Dallon walks in "hey, is he okay?" i stay silent and look him in the eyes. I walked up to him and kissed him passionately. "I hope so."i said, Dallon had a surprised look on him face that changed to a smile. "Ya, me too."