"Sarah there's someone on the phone for you" she got up and left the room with Spencer, soon Spencer came back "hey Ryan tomorrow we're going to start to treat your cancer, but you need to to choose what you want to do, so i'll come back later for your answer." he left a list for me to choose from. Sarah came back crying "Ryan my mom is not coming to to visit me anymore." she pulled me into a hug " i'm sorry Sarah, d-do you want me to sing to you?" i said thinking of anything to stop her from crying, she nodded " i wrote this when i figured out i have cancer,
Please, leave all over coats, canes and top hats with the doorman
And from that moment, you'll be out of place and underdressed
I'm wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it
Ruining this banquet for the mildly inspiring and?
Please, leave all over coats, canes and top hats with the doorman
And from that moment, you'll be out of place and underdressed
I'm wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it
Ruining this banquet for the mildly inspiring and?
When you're in black slacks with accentuating, off-white pin-stripes?
Everything goes according to plan
I am the new cancer, never looked better you can't stand it
Because you say so under your breath
You're reading lips, when did he get all confident?
Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer
Never looked better and you can't stand it
Next is a trip to the ladies room in vain
I bet you just can't keep up (keep up) with these fashionistas
And tonight, tonight you are the whispering campaign
I bet to them, your name is Cheap and that to them you look like shit
Talk to the mirror, choke back tears, and keep telling yourself,
I'm a diva
Oh, and the smokes in that cigarette box on table,
They just so happen to be laced with nitroglycerin
I am the new cancer, never looked better you can't stand it
Because you say so under your breath
You're reading lips, when did he get all confident?
Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer
Never looked better and you can't stand it
Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
I've never looked better and you can't stand it
Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
I've never looked better and you can't stand it
And I know, and I know It just doesn't feel like a night out
With no one sizing you up
I've never been so surreptitious,
So of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch
And I know, and I know It just doesn't feel like a night out
With no one sizing you up
I've never been so surreptitious,
So of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch
And I know, and I know It just doesn't feel like a night out
With no one sizing you up
I've never been so surreptitious,
So of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch"she seemed to love the song " i love that, your a great writer, can you write me a song? i want a song!" she pleaded, so i nodded "maybe one day." i started to think of one instantly "hey does your boyfriend have a song?"i looked at her confused " i don't have a boyfriend." she shook her head "yes you do! Beebo, isn't he your boyfriend?" i blushed, Beebo, her pet name for Brendon " i wish."
~~later~~
"I choose chemotherapy. The drug." Spencer was surprised "do you understand that hair loss is possible?" i nodded "i understand" "let go talk your weight then" i stood and i followed him to the scale "128? When you first got here you were 148, and when i did your blood test you were 163, you lost 35 pounds?" i nodded "have you been eating properly the last two months?" i shook my head " i never really feel hungry anymore." "well then... try to eat more anyway, So your medicine will be about 69 kilograms, 58.0598 exactly." " did you do that in you head?" he smile and showed me his phone screen "ohhhh, you cheater" i joked
hey i'm really happy that you guy are reading this even if you don't like it cause i work really hard to make it not suck but it still does so... thanks anyway oh and i'm thinking of getting rid of/ rewriting lake effect kids cause i hate it and literally had an entire night of crying and threatening to delete it cause halfway through writing a chapter i realized i have no more ideas so if you want me to delete or rewrite then tell me p.s and i'm sorry my chapters are really short i'm trying to make them longer
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If Looks Could Kill, I'd Be Dead.
Fanfiction" if looks could kill..." "If looks could kill?" " then i would be dead, Ryan" Ryan has cancer and Bren is trying to help him get through it but it keeps getting worse no matter how hard they try. Brendon x cancer Ryan no art is mine its all by way...
