Ryan P.O.V once more
I woke up late in the afternoon. "Morning sleeping beauty." "what time is it" i asked Brendon who was by my bed "it 2:37 right now. how'd you sleep?" like if someone hit me on a head i felt horrible pain. " like as if someone killed me." i spoke groggily "that's great" he said sarcastically "why did you run yesterday. Did Dallon do something to upset you?" i shook my head "no it's just- i just-i don't know things just built up inside me and i let them out on the wrong person." i spoke my voice shaking "okay so vent, tell me everything that on your mind, everything that's bothering you." he spoke flashing this award winning smile that could even make satan turn good.
"Um i don't know." "its okay Ryan you don't have to if you don't want to." i nodded and we sat in a comfortable silence until i started humming parts to Sarah's song. josh walked in with Tyler and Sarah following behind. "Beebo! You woke Ryan up from his never ending slumber." she spoke with her forever flowing imagination. "Yep i'm amazing marvel at all this awesomeness." Sarah giggled a few hours later they had all left, Sarah was sitting in her bed staring at the wall until she spoke.
"What's wrong? You've stopped taking to Brendon and i haven't seen you take your pills today or yesterday." She said concerned "can i tell you something that I've never told anyone but Tyler?" She nodded "okay my dad did a lot of drugs and he would drink a lot and one day i can home from school and i found him in my room dead. I tried to call an ambulance but once they arrived they said that it was too late and they couldn't save him that he'd already been dead for hours of a heroin overdose." I said crying. I had the memories all come back
"i never wanted him to go i tried to help him so much we even had interventions with him but it's like he wanted it to happen." She came over " Ryan I'm sure your dad loved you very much, and I'm sure he misses you too but, I'm going to tell you something my dad always sang to me, okay?" I nodded i would love to hear Sarah sing
"this is gospel for the fallen ones
Locked away in permanent slumber
Assembling their philosophies
From pieces of broken memories
Oh this is the beat of my heart this is the beat of my heart
Oh this is the beat of my heart this is the beat of my heart
If you love me let me go
If you love me let me go
Cause these words are knives that often leave scars
The fear of falling apart
And truth i never was your
The fear the fear of falling a part
Oh this is the beat of my heat this is the beat of my heart
Oh this is the beat of my heart this is the beat of my heart
This is gospel for the vagabond
Ne'er do well insufferable bastard
Confessing their apostasies
Led away by imperfect impostors
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart
Don't try to sleep through the end of the world
Bury me alive
'Cause I won't give up without a fight
If you love me let me go
If you love me let me go
'Cause these words are knives that often leave scars
The fear of falling apart
And truth be told, I never was yours
The fear, the fear of falling apart
Oh, the fear of falling apart
Oh, the fear, the fear of falling apart
Oh This is the beat of my heart
The fear of falling apart
Oh This is the beat of my heart
The fear of falling apart
Oh This is the beat of my heart
The fear of falling apart
Oh This is the beat of my heart
The fear of falling apart."
She smiled at me. i felt better. Her smile lit up the entire world. She was the sister i always wanted. i loved her more than anyone, i would die for her.
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