❝𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐊𝐈𝐃𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐒.❞

Chapter 7: Knock Knock- Depressions Here

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///⚠️ WARNING BIG TRIGGER WARNING BIGGG ⚠️ ///

Saturday morning: Day 8 since last Friday.

I finished the last of my tissue boxes and threw it on the floor. I was a mess. My hair was in a greasy bun, my eyes had bags under them, dried up tear stains appeared on my cheeks, my shirt hasn't been cleaned in 5 days, my sweatpants were from the laundry two weeks ago, I got a little bit skinner cause I haven't eaten anything, and finally I haven't taken a shower in 7 days. The guys I like and I are like dominoes. I fall for them, and they fall for someone else. Simple. Well I've come to a conclusion. Forget about love. I don't need it. At all. I heard a knock at my door, but I quickly pulled up the covers so whoever came in wouldn't see me like this. It was horrible, you could see my spine start to pop out of my back...

"Hey Soph...are you okay?" I heard the voice say. It was lars.

"Larsy boi is that you?" I asked smiling.

"Yes it is Soph loaf. How come you haven't been at school last week?" He asked trying to lift the bedsheets over, but couldn't because I trapped them.

"Uhhh no reason....but I don't think I'm coming to school next week either." I said.

"I see...Spencer get in here Soph won't get up." Lars yelled. 'Oh no. Spencer. Tori's boyfriend. Very strong. No no no he's strong no no no-'  it was too late. Spence already lifted the covers and Lars face turned from smiling to a gasp.

"Soph...you...YOU'RE WEAK!!" Lars shrieked.

"Oh no...Soph...have you-" but before Spencer could reply I cut him off.

"Yes YUP I KNOW. I'm weak and I can't get out of my bed literally!! I haven't showered in days and you can see every part of the bone in my body start to show!! I know!! I don't need to hear you guys tell me about it and before you ask more NO I haven't been eating and yes I've been cutting myself it's not my fault I keep hearing stuff in my head trying to control me NOW IF YOU DONT MIND IM GOING BACK TO SLEEP THANK YOU VERY MUCH AND HOPEFULLY GOD DECIDES TO KILL ME ALREADY CAUSE IM SICK OF BEING HERE LIKE THIS." And with that final scream, I pulled the sheets over and cried. I don't care if they hear, after all those are my two guy best friends.

'Do you think they will help you?' Anxiety asked questioningly.

'I don't know...' I answered.

'What If they don't help you? Then what?' Asked anxiety.

'Then we cut more lines until they realize that they should've been there while they had the chance'
Depression answered for me.

I don't know what to do anymore. I didn't hear Lars and Spencer. I know they wouldn't leave me like this. I'll just wait cause I know they'll be back-

'Will they be back?'

I know they will be back...

—-time skip—

It's been three hours. No sign. I was about to give up until I heard a tap on the window. I poked out my head and I saw Spencer wave through. I shook my head and opened the door. He jumped through and smiled.

"Sophhh I got Nuggiesss from McDonald's." He said showing me the bag full of nuggets. I stared at the bag but shook my head not saying a word. Lars crawled through the window next, and sat on my bed.

"Soph if you don't get out of your bed soon and eat I'm gonna shove it in your mouth." Lars said. I still shook my head and didn't speak a word. I refuse. Instead I got up, and as soon as I did, I fell over and passed out. All I remember was Lars and Spencer's words...and then everything went dark.

I woke up a few hours later and looked around. I wasn't hooked to any medical machines or anything which was great. Instead, I was in a dark room. I couldn't see anything. It was cold and I was with nobody.

They put me in an asylum.