The Only Reason (Ashton Irwin)

Chapter 10

Alyssa and I quietly entered our cabin. She sat on her bed then lied on it while I shut the door and locked it. I looked around before seating on my bed. I asked, "Where's Andrea?"

"Having fun with Luke, I guess" she yawned.

"Does she have keys?" I shifted.

She shrugged her shoulders, "I don't know but I'm sure that she'll sleep at Luke's dorm."

I nodded, not listening to her, before grabbing my pillow and lay my head on it and my back on the soft, comfy bed. I placed my hands on my stomach as I stared emotionless at the ceiling. The clock's sound is the only thing that is heard, tick tock tick tock.

Minutes passed and I'm not yet sleeping. I can feel that my eyes won't be droopy at anytime soon. I licked my lower lip. I want to sleep but my thoughts keep bothering me. It keeps thinking about what happened earlier. The memory is so clean and bright in my mind as it plays repeatedly. Alyssa interrupted my thoughts, "Are you still awake?"

"Yeah" I simply answered.

"I can't sleep" her voice muffled.

"Me too."

I keep asking myself. Why did I kissed a guy that I've only known for a day? Why did I enjoyed our kiss?

I shook my head as I thought about something crazy and too far from truth.

I did not fucking liked him, and I won't fucking like him. I'm very sure about that.

I groaned quietly. I wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about our kiss.

"Are you okay?" I heard her bed shifted.

"I.. I'm not" I answered honestly as my hands goes up near to my head and played with the soft brown duvet of my bed.

She sighed, "Is it about Ashton?"

I chuckled nervously, "Babe, it is not about Ashton."

I lose my courage to tell her the truth, and I can't tell her anymore about it since I told Ashton that I want us to forget about it and act like nothing happened.

The kiss changed nothing, we will be still enemies. No matter what happens.

"Oh.. Then what is it about?" she spoke quietly.

"It was nothing serious.." I closed my eyes. I asked, "You. Are you okay?"

She stayed silent. I know she did not watched The Fault In Our Stars and she did not cried because of that. She's not okay because something happened.

"My.. My mind has been confused these past few days.." she continued to talk, "I shouldn't feel this. I just.. I can't."

I slowly sat up in my bed then grabbed my slippers under my bed. I slipped my slippers on then stood up and slowly walked to Alyssa's bed. I sat on it and placed my left hand on Alyssa's right thigh, her back is facing me. "You can tell me about it."

She sighed. She fluttered her eyes open and removed her blanket. She slowly sat up beside me and leaned on me. She mumbled, "I just.. I don't understand my feelings."

My curiosity goes up. I whispered, "Was it about Michael?"

She looked at me and furrowed her eyebrows. Her head moved closer to my head then she whispered to my ear, "Why are you whispering?"

I chuckled. "You want me to shout Michael's name?"

She shook her head sadly and looked down at her feet. "Please don't mention his name."