singing me to sleep. (Alex gaskarth fanfiction.)

chapter 6- maybe we could try this forreal?

Its been two weeks since I had last seen Alex, and that was about a week after he caught Jack and I when we had our thing. We said it would just work better as bestfriends. No hard feelings at all actually. Jack had talked to Alex, and he said he would talk to me soon. and the was a week and a half ago. So now I sat at home, Listening to music while I got all my bank info up to date. I really didn't ever need a job, only because of my dads amazing salary, but still. I took another sip of my gatorade when there was a knock on my door. Hm, it cant be Alex, He never even came back here after the incident. I walked to the door and opened it, No one was here. There was nothing on the ground. I stepped out onto my porch more and saw him sitting in my mahogany rocking chair. My breath hitched in my throat, "Hi." It came out barely more than a whisper.

He turned around and looked at me , but was avoiding my eyes as he replied, "Hey.."

"Do you wanna , uhm...Come in?" God he looked gorgeous. He always looked gorgeous though. so what else was new?

He didnt reply at first, it was obvious he was thinking. "Scarlett, you know I want to. I want to just walk up to you and hug and kiss you, pick you up and carry you into the house, and just lay there with you so I know that your safe. But I can't do that."

"Yes you can. You used to do it all the time..." 

He ran his hand through his hair, and sighed as he sat back down in the chair, "Things are different now Scar. We aren't a couple anymore. And you obviously don't feel the same way I feel... I think it would be better of we were just friends for now." 

"Are you kidding me? No Alex , that's not how we're gonna do this. I dont feel the same way ? YOU DUMPED ME THE MINUTE YOU GOT SIGNED. You left me heartbroken for years. I moved, thinking i could start over and not think about it. But you were everywhere . i couldn't stop thinking about you. It was almost as bad as being in Baltimore again. So dont you dare say that I dont feel the same Alex. Just. Dont." Fuck it, I'm leaving him out here.

I started to turn around to walk back into the house but before i could even make to the front door he had me by my waist and wouldnt let go, "Just turn around for me, please..." Fine, if he wants me to turn around just so he can bitch again, I'll do it. If itll make him leave me alone. I turned around to see him standing there with tears in his eyes, "Scar, When we got signed, I only thought of myself. I only thought about getting drunk and laid all the time. I didnt even begin to process that I was losing the best thing that ever happened to me. You were my everything Scar. Hell, you still are my everything. And the fact that you hurt me once, i didnt begon to think of how many times I'd hurt you...Im sorry."

Damnit feelings. Why can't you go away? Why? Ugh, damnit ALEX. Why do you have to mean so much to me? I pushed the questions aside and wiped his tears away with my thumb pads. I wiped the last tear away and put both hands on his neck. I leaned in until our forheads touched and watched as he fumbled to get his arms around my waist. He finally looked up at me again and was starting to ask me something when i crashed my lips into his. He immediately started kissing back and before I knew it we were in my bed and i was stratteling him. "Alex....I dont wanna move....to...fast..." I couldnt help but let the moan escape my lips as he kissed down my neck. He finally stopped and I rolled off of him. I tried to get out of bed but he grabbed me from behind and just pulled me closer. 

"Just because we stopped doesnt mean Im letting you leave me ."

I laughed quietly and rolled over so i was facing him. "You and I are worse than fire and gasoline...but then again. I am a pyro..haha" He kissed my nose and cheeks before finally saying something to me. 

"Me too babe, Me too. But seriously, maybe we couuld try this....forreal?" 

He was so nervous. It was so cuuute. "Alexander William Gaskarth, Are you nervous? Of course we can! But lets please take this seriously. Okay?" 

"I promise I will Scarlett Rae Johnson. I love you with alll my heart." And with that, we talked and kissed for a  couple of hours until we both decided to watch tv. Then I passed out, happier than I'd been in days.