Lukesse Oneshots~2018 Wattys

~Soul Tug~

And then my soul saw you and it kind of went, 

"Oh, there you are. I've been looking all over for you."

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In my world, everyone has a soulmate. That perfect half. The yin to your yang. It was everyone's goal to find their soulmate and love them till death do you part. How did we know who it was? Ask anyone and you'll get different answers. Some say it's just a gut feeling. Others say it was like their heart jumped in their soulmate's direction. Everyone has a different view, but they all ended up happy and in love with their soulmate. And sometimes, it's the person you least expect.

I was only thirteen at the time. Axel, Olivia, and I were at the EnderCon Building Competition. It was our first competition altogether. Little did I know, it would also be the first time I ever saw my soulmate. We did our best, yet a group called the Ocelots beat us. Afterward, we tried to tell the group of four that they did an excellent job. Aiden didn't think we were good enough to even approach him and his friends. He pushed us away and bullied us, Gill and Maya joining in shortly after. Lukas tried his best to stop his friends from making fun of us, but they never listened and ridiculed him if he ever said anything about it. Rather than risk losing his friends, he fell silent.

My friends and I despised them. They always ridiculed us whenever they could, especially leading up to the Building Competition. Lukas never openly defended us, so we weren't very pleased with him either. However, the final EnderCon Building Competition before the Witherstorm was when he and I finally made up after five long years of rivalry. It was later that night, when we were in the dirt hut looking for the temple, that I gave him the cookie Axel had given me. When our fingers brushed, our gazes met, I experienced a strange sensation. It was almost like my very soul had tingled inside of me.

I was absolutely terrified.

At the time, I didn't know if I was truly feeling the soulmate tug. My thoughts and feelings were all in a jumble that I couldn't sort through alone. But, until the Witherstorm was taken care of, I couldn't focus on it. Then I lost Reuben and I just couldn't even begin to think about the mess of my emotions. It seemed I would never recover. But, during our adventures in the Portal Hallway, I finally spoke to Petra about what had happened that night in the hut months prior. She was convinced it was my soulmate tug. That Lukas and I were soulmates.

But I didn't know how to deal with it. With our past that had been brought up after Aiden and the Blaze Rods tried to take over Sky City, I didn't know how it would affect our relationship. I hadn't treated him the best until Petra told me off when she helped me and Reuben in the forest. If he knew we were soulmates was another thing. Not everyone experienced some strange feeling when they met their soulmate, and he never brought it up, so I assumed he never knew. Petra tried to help me, asking Lukas about his soulmate, yet he always seemed to act a bit off whenever the topic came up. He always tried to avoid it, or turn to a different topic if it did come up. In the end, her results were fruitless.

We ended up giving up on the interrogation shortly before heading into Crown Mesa. But that would prove to be one that I did not regret in the slightest. PAMA forced me to fight Lukas, yet I couldn't bring myself to hurt him. He was my friend and soulmate, I couldn't injure him even if it was my life on the line. Instead, I focused on the Redstone Heart, managing to rip it from PAMA and end his reign of terror. But the second the heart was removed, Lukas collapsed. I carried him back up to the main control room, unable to wake him. The chip was gone, PAMA was out of his head, and I might have just ended his life.

That guilt stabbed into my heart. It was worse than losing Reuben. I felt like I lost a part of me.

I pleaded for Lukas to wake up as tears streamed down my face. Nothing could replace him, just as nothing could replace Reuben. But he didn't wake despite my tears and begging voice. I turned my face away from the blond and shut my emerald eyes. My hand was still holding Lukas', and I felt like every last bit of hope inside me had faded. I didn't look back at him until his hand gripped mine ever so slightly. When I looked back, his ocean blue eyes were slowly fluttering open, sliding over to meet my gaze.