It was always you [kjmila]~COMPLETED✓

Not Again

[A/N I haven't published in so longg skdjskd. This chapter was supposed to be longer, but then I decided to write it in two chapters. I'm gonna try to finish the second part by tomorrow.]

[Kj's POV]

I was so stupid. Why did I have to kiss her? What was I thinking? I ruined everything for both of us. And Charles. I don't even know what he'll do if he finds out. Well, I guess I'm not going to the damn wedding after all.

But what if what I did was a good thing? Kissing her and realizing that I still like her now, is better than doing that at the wedding, right?. At least now she has some time to think. Wait what am I saying? She's not thinking about me. She wants to be with Charles. Hell she's marrying the guy.

It hurts me that I still love her and can't do anything about it, but I'm mostly mad at myself for hurting her and making her cry. I used to be the guy who protected her from all that, from all the heartbreak. Look at me now. She hates me. She really hates me.

I reach Cole's apartment, and rush to the guest room, trying not to draw his attention. I wasn't ready to talk about what had happened. I didn't want him to judge me for my bad decisions.

I lock the bedroom door, put some shorts on, and go to bed. But I couldn't sleep. Why was she even crying? I mean, none of what had happened was her fault. But she kissed me back. What does that mean?

I want her to be happy and all, but deep inside, a part of me really wishes she still likes me. This may sound selfish, because it is, but I don't want her marrying Charles.

[Cami's POV]

*the next day*

I couldn't talk to Charles. I don't think I'll ever be ready.

At first I didn't tell him because I didn't want to hurt him, but the more I think about it, the more I realize that that's just a dumb excuse. The truth is, I didn't want to tell him because that kiss wasn't nothing.

It's funny how Charles and I have been planning the wedding for so long, and one single person could come and make me question everything.

He made me realize the truth... I think. After Kj and I kissed, I started crying, and at first I didn't know why. It was all so confusing, but now I think it's either because I don't really know if I want to marry Charles or because I still like Kj. It could be both. I don't know I just need time.

I then check my phone. Cole added me to a group chat along with Madelaine, Lili, Casey, Vanessa, and Charles.

Cole: Dinner at my place?

Madelaine: We'll be there!

Charles: Okay, see you tonight.

That sounds like a pretty good idea. I really needed to stop worrying about all the drama and just hangout with my old friends for a night.

Charles picks me up, then drops me off at Cole's house as he goes to get cake. He didn't want to come empty-handed.

I ring the doorbell and wait a couple of seconds for someone to open the door.

"Cami!", Cole says as he gestures for me to enter,"wait weren't you supposed to come with Charles?"

"Oh yeah he's coming in a bit. Is Lili here?" I ask.

"No, she's getting her hair done at the salon, but she should be finished by now", he replies.

"Oh okay, I'm just gonna go hang my coat inside", I say as I head towards the closet, then I continue with a high voice so that he'll here me," So we're the only ones h-"

I stop when I hear the bathroom door open beside me. Steam starts running through the door. It was very hard to see anything at all. Then a person is revealed through all that steam.

I could see a whole lot of skin, then I notice a towel wrapped on the waist. My sight shifts upwards along the perfect abs until I finally meet the face. The face.

I gasp unintentionally swallowing my chewing gum. Great, just great. Is he always going to surprise me like that?

Before I could say, or actually even feel anything, I hear Cole's disembodied voice , "Surprise!"

Well Kj sure was surprised. I think.

I don't know what to do at this point. We're just awkwardly standing there, him in a towel, and Cole just clueless. I'm guessing he hasn't told him yet. I haven't told anyone either.

Cole then manages to break the dreadful silence," The rest are on their way. You seemed a little bummed yesterday Kage, and you went to bed early without even saying anything, so I thought bringing the cast back together might cheer you up."

"Yeah, thanks bro", he says in a gruff voice, then slightly smiles, "I'm just gonna go get dressed."

He hugs the both of us, of course our hug being the most awkward one yet, then heads to a nearby room and closes the door.

"You never told me he was going to be here!" I whisper to Cole.

"What? I thought you knew he was staying with me", he murmurs back,"and why does it seem like you're not happy to see each other?"

I roll my eyes, "it's just-"

I get cut off by the doorbell. Thank god.

Cole gives me a stern look as he moves to open the door.

"Charles!", I hear a voice behind me exclaim.

"Kj?", he says as he goes through the doorway to give him a hug.

Okay, I'm doomed.