When Old Dreams Come True

Part 10

I shift and feel a strong arm pull tighter around my waist.  "Chris."

"Hmm."  His arm pulls me closer to his chest, the warmth from his body radiating through the fabric of my shirt and I try to roll over to stare at him.  

"Chris, you have to let me move."  The arm around me loosens and I roll onto my other side my eyes meeting his blue-grey ones.  I reach forward and run my fingers over a scar that stretches down from his left shoulder for a couple inches.  

"Can I ask you something Audge?"  I look back up to his face and nod.  "Is it funny to you how you're just wearing a shirt and panties and all I'm wearing are bottoms?"  I raise my eyebrow and laugh.  

"What?"  This is my pajamas and you are wearing a pair of your pants I stole forever ago."  

"It's just the fact that together we have one set of pajamas."  I close my eyes and bite my lip. I feel his warm calloused fingers under my chin as he tilts my face towards his.  "Audrey."

"What are we doing Chris?  I mean really you only got back in town a few weeks ago and I just..."  I look down watching his chest rise and fall as he breathes.  "I mean really Chris what are we doing?"

"Audrey honey, I love you.  You know that."  I shake my head and look away as I sit up. 

"Chris, you say that now, but you said it back then and you left."  I feel my voice crack, "I can't do that again.  I would hope that you'd come back and we could start again but now.....I just don't know what we're doing anymore."  

He sits up next to me and pushes my hair out of my face, before he cups my face in his hand.  "Audrey honey, I know I messed up back then.  And I'm trying to make it up to you every way I know how.  I know we had so many plans of what we wanted and I screwed it all up.  And I've been kicking myself everyday since because I should never have left you.  I loved you then and I love you now."

"Chris."  I say and bite my lip looking up at the ceiling as the tears start to gather in my eyes.  "You aren't the only one to blame.  I screwed up all of our plans too.  I-"  I stop putting my face in my hands.  "Just promise you won't say anything until I'm done saying this."  I look over at him and his brows furrow as a look of confusion and concern cross his face.  "I should have told you then but I didn't know how."  I swallow hard and stand up moving to the other side of the room.  "About a week before you left, I found out-"  I let out a long breath looking over to the window.  "I found out I was pregnant.  I was so damn scared Chris.  I didn't know how to tell you, partly because I had no way of knowing if it was-  A few days later, he figured it out and was pissed and then I woke up in the hospital, the doctors telling me I had tripped down the stairs and the baby was gone.  I've never fallen down the stairs."  I stop and wipe the tears from my face and run my fingers through my hair.  "I was declared other wise fine, so they sent me home, and two days later, you told me you had to leave.  I was so sure you had found out somehow and that you hated me.  I kept hoping I was wrong, and that you'd come back and we would be okay.  That we could move on and live the way we always planned, but instead it took eight years, for you to get here.  I waited for two and a half years hoping you'd come back, before I finally agreed to go on a date with Blake.  We dated about a year before we got married, and the first two years were great, and just after out second anniversary I found out I was pregnant, and six months later I went into labor early and he was still born.  Everything went down hill from there."  I shake my head and step away as Chris moves towards me.  "Blake and I fought more and more and a couple months later he filed for divorce.  I couldn't blame him, all the little things had piled up over the years and it was two months.  Instead of celebrating out third anniversary we signed the papers.  I moved back over here, and for the last year and a half have tried to get over it all and forget all the crap in the past.  But then you showed up and I just.....I love you Chris and I-"  I close my eyes and lean against the wall feeling my chest tighten and the tears spilling down my face.  Moments later Chris's arms are around me and hold me against his chest.  

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This was a bit of a heavy chapter but it got a lot covered and brought into the light.