I was still silently sobbing when in all the sudden I got a notification in my phone from un unknown phone number.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Unknown: you are going to avoid your little friendship group from now on or I'll destroy their lives completely and humiliate each of them including yourself!
Me: who is this and WTH?!
Unknown: it doesn't matter..But choose wisely cause I have some good ideas how to ruin yours and their lives !
Me: you will not tell me what to do!
Unknown: Well,then I can start with Emma your closest best friend..Just imagine her face when her life will turn into living hell and all of it would be your fault!
Me: don't you dare!
Unknown: then listen to me!
Me: okey fine..What exactly do you want me to do?
Unknown: Avoid and ignore Grayson,Ethan and Emma!
Unknown:oh and you better not tell anyone!
Me:But I can't just ignore them and leave them confused?!
Unknown: so you would rather hurt them ?
Me: no Me: why are you doing this?
Unknown:That's none of your business. Unknown:I hope that I made things clear.
Me:so no contact,ignore them,nothing? Like they don't exist?
Unknown:Exactly
Unknown:Starting from now!
Me:I hate you so much!!!! Me:But I'll do it to protect my friends. Read
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I cannot believe this!Who would be so cruel to do this to me and them!No no no they are going to hate me so much,they are literally my only friends I can truly trust and be actually happy with and be myself.
This is going to be so hard,especially at lunch in school.I hate myself I already do.I can't even image what they are going to think about me?!
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I can't even remember falling asleep yesterday.It was terrible I couldn't stop thinking and worrying.Just the thought that I have to ignore them without explaining anything to them makes me sick and feel terrible.They are going to hate me and our trust will be gone.
I did all my business in the bathroom and got changed into this.
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I went downstairs greeted my parents and took an apple to eat on the way. "Darling me and mum are going out tomorrow night for dinner so we recon that we'll be home at about 1am." "Okey!"I shouted so they can hear me from the living room.I then put my coat on and when I looked at the mirror properly I noticed that my eyes were red from all the crying and realised how much it hurts.I let out a loud sight but didn't care honestly. Because today,tomorrow the day after and God knows for how long I'll have to do this for,ignore my best friends.
What's got me more worrying is that Gray's and Eth's birthday is coming up this week end and I already have the perfect presents for the both of them. Now I can't give it to them and wish them a happy birthday.
I walked through the school main entrance into the locker room to get my books for the day.I looked around and didn't see them which made me sight of relief.The more I'm thinking the more I hate myself.What's worse is that I have every single class with them and I also sit next to them.
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It's now lunch and so far everything is going horrible.They all tried talking to me in classes and asked what's wrong. I never thought it would hurt so much so I didn't even look at them.
I got my food and sat at an empty table away from the one I usually sit at,with Em,Eth and Gray.I quickly ate my lunch and when I was about to get up I felt people around me.The familiar cologne,Grayson;the deep sight Ethan and the calming sweet voice of Emma. I stood up anyway but I didn't look up at them.I felt so ashamed and it hurts to be doing this. "Sofia what's wrong,why are you ignoring us?"
I still didn't look up and I didn't even answer her question.Instead I tried walking off but failed.Grayson held my wrist enough to stop me. "Sofia." Grayson almost whispered with a crack in his voice.
His sweet and calming voice.You could hear how hurt he was by me doing this to them.I finally looked up and met Grayson's glossy eyes,I immediately looked away as guilt rushed through my body.And walked off somewhere away from them,where I won't be tempted to talk to them and ruin their lives,all because of that stupid unknown person.
Me:I hate you!Why are you even doing this..Why can't I be friends with them?
Unknown: Because I thought I had a chance with you !I wanted to be friends with you,perhaps even more!And they always take you away from me Okey? Read _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
What?I cannot believe this!That is so childish.But, who could it be?
