Laeyana is a 21 yr old girl from Baltimore Maryland. She's going through her lowest point in life. She's been dealing with depression, loneliness and self hatred ever since she was a kid and can't seem to find any true happiness within her life. She...
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"Hello?"
"Hello, this is Mitchel Smith, your chief executive manager. Is this Ms. Laeyana Okori?"
"Yes, this is her."
"Unfortunately Ms.Okori I'm calling to inform you that we're terminating your employment."
My heart sank to the bottom of my stomach. I kind of knew I would be getting fired, but I was hoping they would've at least let me off with a warning.. like damn it's not my fault I'm a commuting flight attendant whose plane was under maintenance and caused me to be late to my next flight.
"I'm sorry I was late Mr. Smith but that delay wasn't my fault. I mean, can you like give me a write up or something? It's not like I never showed up for the job, I did. It was just an unfortunate event that caused me to not get there on time, that's all.
"I'm Sorry Laeyana but since you're on a one year probation that's set up to determine if you're reliable for the job, unfortunately there's no excuses. I will be sending you an email of the following items you need to return back to corporate, along with your final paycheck which should come in the mail in a few weeks. Take care."
"Okay..bye."
I hung up the phone and continued driving home. Job, gone. Benefits, gone. Buddy passes, gone. I can't believe I just got fired from the best job I ever had...
later that night.
As soon as I got home, I went in my room and crawled right in the bed. I tried not to get angry at myself for letting this happen but I couldn't.stop.thinking about it.
I'm my hardest critique on myself and once I'm alone with my thoughts, it gets all bad for me. I couldn't stop thinking to myself..
"You stupid bitch! How the fuck could you let that happen?! So what the plane was under maintenance, you should've took an earlier flight! You fucking dumbass, now look at you. Still living with your mom because you haven't raised enough money to get your own place yet, no education cuz you don't know wtf you wanna go to college for and now you don't have a fucking job because ya just got fired! You worthless piece of shit! You outta fucking kill your self you stupid bitch! Don't you realize why everyone says you're stupid is because it's true? Fucking kill yourself!!"
My breathing started getting heavy and I started crying. The anger in me made me grab my wrist and start pulling and scratching the inside of it. I was ready to kill myself. I believed in God but this depression was getting the best of me which made me cry harder because I knew it was breaking me and I was too weak to control it. I've been working my ass of since high school and never did I ever think I would get fired from a job, especially a good one like this. I grabbed my phone and called my mom hoping she could help me clear my suicidal thoughts.
