nikki misery : save myself from me

Threats Of Romance

[Ashley's POV] 

We were on the way to the hospital and I have never seen Nikki like this, he was a mess. He had known this girl for, what? Two months? I think he got attached to the idea that he could help her, he, help her speak, help her feel confident, and help her find love.

Steven got in the ambulance with Riot and the paramedics, while the remainder of The Undead proceeded to Steven's car. We drove in Jeremy's car, he drove, i sat in the passenger seat, and Nick and Nikki sat in the back. 

This is the quietest I've ever seen Nikki. And it scares me. Not even as a joke, it genuinely scared me. I know when he has anxiety, he has it hard, when he panics, he panics like there's no tomorrow, which they're probably wouldn't be in his head if he was panicking. And when he loved someone, he loved them with all his heart. Only to get his heart shattered into a million pieces. 

I felt sorry for my friend, he tried so hard, and got so far. But, in the end it doesn't even matter. 

He didn't deserve this shit. 

I was worried about Riot too. 

She's so young, so pretty, she has so much to say but little ways to say it. She was so pure and she deserves the world. 

I was shaking, yes, I was crying, yes. But, was Nikki shaking? A lot. Was Nikki crying? Yes. He did a lot of crying in the past few hours. 

I was driven out of my thoughts when Jeremy told us we were at the hospital. 

We all nodded and slowly got out. 

I helped Nikki out because he was still shaken up. "Thanks.." He mumbled. 

And then we headed inside the hospital. 

[Steven's POV] 

I held her hand all the way to the hospital, and I whispered and told her it was all going to be okay, that she was going to live. She said nothing, but nodded slightly. I wasn't offended, I knew she had little strength. I need to call Courtney and Frances. 

I'll do it when the paramedics take her out into the hospital. 

I could've been there, I could've stopped this. 

I'm an idiot for leaving her alone. 

She had let me know she was feeling down. 

But I didn't think it was this bad. 

Oh my god, I'm a monster for not saving her. 

The paramedics told me they were going to take her in now, and that my friends and I could sit in the waiting room outside the room they take her in. 

They were good looking men.. Hmm.. I wonder if they're taken.. Or maybe need a one night--Steven stop! Try get with Nick first.. 

Oh he's one sexy piece of man meat. 

Okay, away from men. Before mini - Steven gets excited. 

What is wrong with me? 

Okay, follow the pretty boys and sit outside the door. Got it. 

I texted the others and let them know where I'm sitting down. And then I'll call Courtney. 

[Nikki's POV] 

Steven messaged Ash to tell her where to bring us and to sit down. What are they gonna tell the public? 

I'm not looking forward to preforming. 

We met Steven there and he mentioned something about ringing Riot's mother, Courtney. 

As in, Courtney Love. 

I don't believe in god, but I might for the few minutes I'm gonna be in the same room with Courtney Love. 

Steven walked closer to the window, which wasn't too far from us. We were on the second floor. 

He dialed in a number on his phone, and put the phone to his ear. 

He began speaking. 

"Heyy Courtney, it's me, Steven!"

Static.. 

"Uhh yeah.. Well.. Friday got in an accident." 

Static..

Wait, Friday? No, no they're talking about someone else. Just an ice breaker. 

"Yeah I know, yeah.. it was a.. uhm.. suicide attempt." 

Static.. 

Nope, they're not talking about someone else. 

Written : 16th of February 

Published :15th of April