Anxiety

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I was just done putting my cloths on,
Get ready with my motorcycle key,
And a bottle.

As I was done sneak my shoe in,
I feet on the starter,
And I push the motorcycle before turn it to right,
I started my journey to school.

Who ever though,
Just as soon I arrived,
I see guys;
GUYS,
The most of certain human beings I hated,
In front of me.

I started to trembling,
I sat on the bench behind the two way that break us apart,
I start to messaging my friend to send me help to there,
They laugh saying nothing gonna be,
And after few pleading and begging,
She's coming and help me through.

The more I stand and eyes contacting with them,
The more trembling I be,
Shaking I started,
and shortness of breath,
I though it's not attacking me.


I heard a voice sound out,

"Do her coming yet?"
"Yes, she are. She's gone for toilet"
"Ah.." by others. 
                
            And I start to feeling lightheadedness,
I start to feeling that I'm ready to cry,
I told my friend that I really need to excuse,
And I really run.

I walk faster to my motorcycle,
I start it tremblingly,
And put the journey to my parents.

I was greet with another sad thing,
My family cat gone,
While she just few weeks old.

After I took money for motorcycle fuel,
I ran again,
I was sad even greater.

I lost her,
My family cat,
My heart,
And letter I'm really breakdown when I lost the fuel money too.

16/2/19 9:33 pm

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