Diary by Annz

manic episodes

I have bipolar disorder, depression one. Yet I would sometime, undergo such a rapid shift from depression to manic.

No one understands. This is like a dumb cow tries to make human understand what they're talking about. Frustratingly unable to make it happen.

I have too many ideas inside my head; ideas to write stories, ideas to record a video, lyrics to be written for songs, dance to cover, or maybe ways to die.

But, I couldn't get even one done. That's a manic episodes.

I can't even sleep peacefully at night due to nightmares, same dreams that made me worked up in the middle of the night. I dreamt of my dead father, living in front of me.

That sucks.

I wish, one of thing I could do is died.