the day, she called me with shaky voice causing from crying for you; who was laying on the hospital bed, panting out to breathe behind the oxygen mask.
the day, she decided to forced me to come to hospital; for you.
that day, seems so fresh and clear to my memory.
until now, i wish, i never there to witness you, struggle to breath normally.
until now, i wish my memory just gone nut so that your face doesn't look that clear to my eyes.
well, that day, i went to you; the time were 2:30? see? i don't remember that,
but, this;
after hours, the doctors finally gave up on reviving you.
after hours, you finally fallen into coma.
after minutes, God sent Angel of Death to come. and pick your linger soul.
i was just standing there, at your feet, the edge of the hospital bed; hiding my face behind heartbeat machine.
i'm glad,
i'm glad,
i'm very very glad.
i didn't took a glance to your face; at all.
i'm glad, i did it.
i'm sorry, dad.
i'm so so sorry,
if the only way to keep myself alive is forgetting you, then erasing you from my memory will be what i'll doing.
you may be sad i'm doing this to you; as if you read this letter of mine to you.
but, i no longer living insane world as you anymore.
when you able to peek me from far, then i just got clueless worries running in my veins.
i'm sorry,
i guess, it's time,
to sadly say,
you was mine.
23/5/20
10:00 pm
YOU ARE READING
Diary by Annz
PoetryJust my diary that I post, some of them just my emotional feeling just like you are Dear Diary By - Annz Eyra
