You And I

5

When John woke up it was so early in the morning that it was still dark outside. He was already feeling better. It probably was because of the broth Freddie had brought him. He wasn't good at cooking at all, but if he could do one thing it was making food for sick people. John didn't know what Freddie put into this suspicious broth, but it helped him to get healthy again for a few times now.
Roger was laying next to him and had stolen the blanket. He was snuggled up in John's side and his face was covered by his hair.
John moved it behind his ear to see his beautiful face. Then he carefully got up from the bed and moved to the bathroom. He brushed his teeth, washed his face and brushed his long hair, which he hadn't done for two days or so.
After that he went to the kitchen and made himself some coffee. Freddie was gone already, he noticed.
While John was waiting for the coffee, he searched for cigarettes in the pocket of Roger's jacket.
He felt something awkward. It was flat with sharp edges and there was something like a ring in it. Curious, what it could be, he took it out and looked at it in the soft light coming from the lamp in the corner of the room.
It was a condom.
John's heart began to race. Sure, he said he wanted to go further with Roger, but he did not think that his boyfriend was also thinking like that. Especially when he told him that he wanted to wait until John wasn't I'll anymore.
Or was he using it with some other person? Not that stupid jealousy thing again!
Roger was always prepared to have sex anyway, so no need to worry.
John quickly stuffed the condom back into the pocket and searched through the other one.
Luckily, he found what he wanted. He pulled a cigarette out of the box and stuck it between his lips. Casually, he threw the box on the kitchen counter and laid himself on the couch.
He lit the cigarette and inhaled the smoke deeply. Almost immediately, John could feel the nicotine calming his nerves.
He slowly blew the smoke out again.
John sometimes imagined what it would be like to have sex with Roger for the first time. It would be beautiful and it would feel good. He was worried about doing things wrong, too. John never had sex before and Roger was so experienced in things like these.
He also felt bad for letting Roger wait for so long.
When Roger wakes up, I'll tell him that I want to have sex with him, John thought.
He finished his cigarette and began to drowse soon after. John forgot about his coffee.

Roger woke up when rays of the sun hit his face. The birds were singing quietly. It was indeed a great morging.
Roger noticed that John was missing. Before going to look for his boyfriend, he rolled on his back and stretched. While doing so, he let out an inhuman screech. His body relaxed and after a few seconds he swung his legs out of the bed, put on a pair of John's bunny slippers he had bought him as a joke and left the room.
The drummer found John sleeping on the couch on his stomach, almost falling off. The room smelled like smoke.
"Wake up, Deaky." He whispered, petting his boyfriends back. John opened his eyes and smiled softly.
"Hello, Rog."
He sat up and greeted greeted him with a deep kiss.
"I stole one of your cigs."
"No problem." Roger said. He added:
"Do you feel better?"
John nodded.
"Thanks to Freddie's soup. I wonder what kind of medicine he puts in there!" John joked.
He took Rogers hand and leant onto him. After a few moments he said:
"There actually something I want to talk to you about."
Roger's heart sank into his belly. That phrase never means something good.
"Mh-hm?" Was all he could bring out.
John squeezed his hand lightly and looked him in the eye.
"I found the condom in your pocket."
"Um... " Roger shifted away. He was very uncomfortable.
"You... Don't use with some other person, do you?"
"God, absolutely not! I just wanted to be prepared if you are ready to have sex with me."
Roger took Deakys hand and rubbed it with his thumb.
There were a few moments of silence before John replied.
"Good." He smiled. "While we're already talking about it; I still think I'm ready to have my first time with you. Only if it is okay with you, of course...?"
Roger was incredibly relieved - John wasn't gonna make a scene out of it. He kind of thought that he would dig deeper and ask more questions. That already happened one time and its quite hard to get out of this, even if you're not lying.
It would have surprised him if he did, though, Roger knew how much his boyfriend trusted him.
He sighed.
"Of course I want to, Deaky." Roger mumbled onto John's lips.
"Now?" Roger asked.
"Yes, please."
The two shared another kiss before standing up, getting the condom from Rogers pocket and moving to the bed.
They kept standing in front of it when they arrived. The bassist laid the condom carefully on the bed, as if it were something sacret.
John cupped Rogers face and kissed him again. Doing so, Roger placed his hand on his small hips and pulled him closer.
The kiss got more demanding and their tongues started to get into the game. John moved one of his hands down to the rim of Roger's sweatpants and gave it a light pull.
"Is it okay if I touch you?"
"Hell yeah!" Roger responded.
His hand went further down and gave Roger's crotch a slow stroke. This earned a quiet groan from the blonde man.
"Now it's my turn."
Roger slipped his hands under the sweatpants of John. He let them grab and squeeze his cute little bum.
John pressed his chest against Rogers and started kissing and sucking at his neck, which made the drummer gasp in pleasure. John made his way up to the place behind his boyfriends ear. He licked it a few times and then started giving Roger a hickey at that spot.
That was the spot that made Roger soft. His knees felt like jelly when John started sucking and his whole body was covered in goose bumps.
"God, John!"
He shoved him away a little bit, just to grab Johns pullover and pulled it over his head. Roger looked at Johns skinny chest, which was still covered with yellowish bruises from other occasions.
John opened Rogers robe to reveal his bare chest.
"So handsome." The bassist said looking into the other ones eyes. This earned a big grin from Roger.
"You're not that ugly yourself."
He gave John a small kiss on the coner of his mouth. He then proceeded to take his pants and bunny slippers off.
Roger took Johns hand.
"Should we continue on the bed?" The blonde said. He tried to be as comforting as Freddie advised him too. Normally, he would have pushed his partner onto the bed and just started to do the dirty.
John nodded shyly.
They got onto the bed and just looked each other in the eyes for a few moments.
"I really appreciate it that you take it so slow with me, Rog." John whispered.
"I love you, John. You're worth it."
Roger kissed him to emphasize his response. He let his hand glide slowly across Deakys side and eventually let it rest on his hips.
Meanwhile John noticed that Roger was already hard. He slipped his hand under Rogers boxers again and started to wank him. The brunette had a firm grip and massaged the tip with his thumb.
Roger moaned loudly. John stroked his dick a few times before he stopped all of a sudden.
"Undress me." He demanded. Roger was a little hazed from his boyfriends touch but he loved to follow his command. The drummer got on his knees and grabed both the rim of Johns sweatpants and his boxers. Then he pulled them off gently and teasing. On his way down he pulled the white socks John was wearing with him. He threw the clothes on the floor.
Now his boyfriend was laying naked, vulnerable and absolutely stunning in front of Roger. John was almost hard too and covered his face with his hand, though he watched Rogers reaction through the space between his fingers.