I wanted to try out something new, by inserting songs. But I have one song that would somehow match this chapter to the part of the conversation between Hope and Jessica.
But if you guys have any other ideas of songs please comment❣️
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"Wait Jessy,please stay still "
"Noooo...." she cries out as a baby while pushing my hands aside as I try to remove the vomit from her chin. That she caused right after Alexander left with his whatever. Even I wanted to vomit after seeing him.
"Jessy... please" I look at her pouting out my lips trying to wake her funny listening drunk side
"Alright alright" finally she gave in and faced me quietly, making it easier for me to remove the vomit-spot and then I just sat on the floor with her and staring back at her, we were quite. It wasn't an awkward quietness or whatever it was like a quietness for her to be able to think straight, maybe. Like we had a whole conversation through our eyes. I get what she is going through... even though I never meet my father I still do feel his absence, and she does the same with her gramma, even though she wasn't her mother she was still the one who was there for her in comparison with her mom.
After a while she got up off the floor and I followed her move. Dusting off whatever dirt that was on my back.
"I need to go to um the bathroom" she said as she held her forehead
"Are you okay?" I looked at her worried
"No.. ugh, don't worry I'm fine, I just need to go to the bathroom and do..."
"Ohhh, are you going to do number 1 or 2?" I asked smiling, and she started to laugh, during this entire time I was here with her, she finally laughed and I laughed back with her. It made me happy that I finally made her smile even though she is living a hell inside her soul.
Out of nowhere I started to see tears running down her cheeks and my smile started to fade as I started to hear here sobbing. I directly went and hugged her.
"Why... why I-Is my..." I was just quiet, letting her explode the thoughts she tried to drown with alcohol.
"I still need her Hope, she s.. she was my everything" Hearing her in this pain, just wanted me to heal it or transfer the hurt to myself. Jessica is nothing but a caring and loving person I know! And I wish nothing disaster upon her.
"Hope..." I released her from hugging and held her shoulders as I faced her
"Yes..." Watching her eyes in pain, the color of her black mascara running down her cheeks as make up is all over the places now
"Why... do I... why do I go through things I barely know I'll survive... why do I get th- this life" Her asking me this made it uneasy for me to resist the tears. I didn't want to tell her that everything was going to be okay. Because I know that it wouldn't.
"Jessy... life can be cruel, it may even be crueler to those who doesn't deserve the awfulness. But you. Are. A. Survivor! And yes, she is..." the tears just rolling down, and feeling my voice getting stuck in my throat
"Is... gone—" she started to cry, making me turn my face away to remove the tears on my cheeks, to make myself strong for her
"Hey listen Jessy... I know that it hurts... it hurts as hell, but the pain won't be that painful with the time passing by, but I will also tell you that... the pain won't disappear"
Suddenly the door opened and two girls went inside laughing and went in their separate ways to the two bathrooms. I turned my face from the doors the girls are in and faced Jessy
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Romansa"Oh crap!" I heard an unfamiliar voice saying at the same time as I apologized. "Oh god... sorry!" As I watched his water bottle on the floor and my note papers taking a bath of the water that ran out of his fallen bottle, that was caused by me. As...
