Vampires little secret

~Welcome Back~

I was standing outside the busy streets of New York, starting into nothingness as the snow elegantly laid on the ground , in my hair and on my palms.
It was slow and calming, how each snow flake danced in the air before landing on the cold hard ground, becoming one with the others.
It didn't melt on my skin... I wasn't warm enough for a small drop of frozen water to melt on my hand... the fact that I was in a tank top didn't bother me, I wasn't cold. I didn't feel cold. It was as if it didn't even exist... my skin would have to be burned off for me to feel anything.

I came out here, in front of the huge building that I've been staying at, to get some fresh air, to think things trough. I was a hybrid, a combination of three types of vampires, all put together differently for them to survive like they did.
Why was I a mix? Why couldn't I just been simple like Aidan and Alex?

That's when it started snowing, as if the universes answer to my existential crises was snow. Snow, the very thing that caused this! If it wasn't for snow I wouldn't have crashed the car, I wouldn't have been bitten... I wouldn't have become ... this!!
Who bit me? And why? Why didn't they just let me be? Because I would've died, that's why.
I used to think that dying in that car would have been a better out come than this.
But now I knew that I was supposed to be a vampire, this was supposed to happen. Even though I didn't know why or for what reason but what needed to be, will always happen. You could call it faith. All I knew was that I had to get over myself and had to make the most of my life, I had to stop worrying about the whys and then whats and stop always wondering.. wondering about what could have been.

My life was just starting. This is my new beginning. This was how my life was supposed to be. I didn't need answers, I didn't need anything but blood to get through the rest of my few hundred years on this earth.

I just let the small snow flakes fall on my skin, coating the top of my head and the tips of my eyelashes. The contrast between my maroon hair and the crystal white snow was drastic but beautiful and pleasing to look at. My bear feet on the pavement that was now cover in snow to my ankles was cold but nice and refreshing from the warm and crowded feel of the air that was in the penthouse. The air outside felt amazing as it filled my lungs with fresh cool air.
As I was admiring the snow I felt a tap on my shoulders, it was Alex pulling me under the cover of the building.

"Jesus Red you look nuts stranding in the snow in almost nothing" He spoke, his voice filled with worry as he slid the door and pushed me into the lobby, where the receptionist looked at me worriedly.
"That doesn't really bothers me, you should know that by now!" I said with an eye roll as he pushes me into the elevator.
"I know you didn't care, and I know you're feeling confused right now, but it's minus twenty degrees you need to put on a coat and shoes if you don't want people to give you a ride to a mental asylum!" He spoke rapidly.
"Oh come on, its New York no one cares about anyone but themselves" I cross my arms after patting the snow off of my head and shoulders.
"I'm just saying, I know the whole hybrid thing must have freaked you out but you still need to blend in just like the rest of us." He explained after pressing the top floor button.
"I know" I nodded and step closer to him " And thanks for caring" I added as I rested my head against his shoulder.
"No problem" He responded as he looked down at me, I could senes a half smile forming on his lips as he faced back towards the elevator door.
We rode the elevator like this for a couple minutes, I was thinking about what my life was like at the moment and what it'll be like after I fully turned. What would happen If I turned rouge... feral,  jumper?
"What would you do if I turned into a jumper?" The quest slipped through my lips, Alex looking at me with concern in his eyes.
"I'd probably have to kill you" He answered shakily, seemingly not wanting to discus the topic, pain laying behind his eyes.
"Good" I smiled up at him seconds before the elevator opened and we where greeted by the same living room that I was on my first day here.