the celestial city

angel

i carried everyone's weight
on my shoulders
because i thought it was friendship
they called me an angel
they called me sweet
but then i realized that
the weight of their shoulders
brought me down

when i released their weight
i was happier
until i realized
that without me
carrying their burdens
i did not matter

that i was alone

and now i carry my weight
i drag it behind me
and it has destroyed me

the angel i once was
is someone
i don't think i'd
recognize