the celestial city

happy new year.

// this is partially a continuation of countdown to new years. thank you for reading. //

january 1st

began the countdown

and for months i've pushed it to the

back of my mind.

the timer went off.

and now i am stuck

with myself

because for the next three years

i will be pulled away

from the one i love most.

though i decided that

it was for the best,

and that i would be okay,

internalizing the last time

we kissed

we hugged

i saw his face

threw me for a loop.

it was the worst day of my life

and i almost died

quite literally, i almost drove off the road

because i couldn't see through

my tears.

but today is a new day

the day he leaves for college.

i am so proud of him

even though my heart aches.

through the pain

starts another timer

the time until i see him again.