the celestial city

when did it become this??

my mind has not been stretched

to the point of destruction

since, well,

february. i guess.

and when i think of this i wonder

when did it become this??

and i suddenly realize that

i was brought the thing i thought i didn't need

a friend.

.... seriously??

yes! though i never really had many...

i always thought i did until i truly

realized

how alone i was

and then she arrived

more than words

more than actions

my love grows

because i was saved from despair

just because of some girl

who liked to boss me around.

and a little help from my other friends, too.

and sometimes i feel terrible

in fact

i've had some of the

darkest

horrible

terrible

thoughts in my life since february.

but i note that they are fleeting

and they never last

because all that hate turns into love.

and then, it became this..