Story of J

Chapter 7

Its E. E texted me.

E - hey, just wanted to make sure u got home okay and wanted to let u know that I had a great time getting to know u tonight. Wish our date never ended, but that inevitable. Anyways, goodnight. Hope u sleep well. And I'll see u tomorrow at school♡

I must have the biggest gain on my face. My cheeks are hurting. I've never felt this way with anyone. Not even with R. R never made me feel like that. He never made me feel like he actually acknowledged me, that he even knew who I was. But with E. With E it's different. It's like he knows me, like he wants to get to know me more, the he actually see me, the real me. And that's the best feeling in the whole world.

So I think about E. I start writing about our date. Starting with how he scared the hell out of me, to me accidentally letting him know that I have this weird thing about being on time, but then going on about he opened up to about his routines. And finally finished to the walk back and the hug at the end. My phone had a whole section of words dedicated to that sate. Of how he made me feel, how happy I was, what had happened, what I loved, just everything and anything.

But then the next section in my phone is all about what I had just done not even a mere hour ago. All about the 5 cuts. The way I loved the feeling of the blade tearing through my skin, the sight of the blood dripping and dripping. How it felt so good. How I did it because of my parents fighting, of no one noticing my presence, of being just me.

With that I closed my notes app and open messenger.

Me - I had the best night of my entire life S!!!

S - That's amazing J! What did yall do? What happened? Did yall kiss goodnight? Spill!!

Me - Oh geesh. Where do I start? I pulled up to the ice cream parlour, that's where we decided to meet up, and as I was making sure I was ready to go on the date, he tapped on my window scaring the @@@@ out of me. He was laughing so hard and I just laughed right along with him. It was the perfect start to a date. We got ice cream and walked in the park. We talked. Had some deep points in out conversation and just got to know each other and enjoy each others company. It was truly a great night.

S - Sounds oh so romantic😍😂

Me - 😂😂

Me - I had a great time. I haven't felt like I did on that date in a long long time and it felt so good to have those feelings back.

S - Well I'm glad J! Just keep being yourself whenever ur around him and just act like how u would around me with him.

S - So r u ever gonna tell me this mystery boy's name?

Me - E

S - And he has a name!!!😂

Our conversation carries on until S sadly is tired and says that she's going to bed. That means in left with myself and my thoughts. But I could always respond to E's text.

Me - Hiya! Sorry for the late response, but I did get in okay. I had a great time on our date! Was sad that it ended as well. Well goodnight/good morning. See u at school.

With the text sent and E still on my mind, I slowly and surprisingly drifted off to sleep.